crazygrrl

As I drove home from a long and complicated day of teaching today, I came upon the realization that I no longer have access to a bi-curious girlfriend. It depresses me because I never fulfilled my primary fantasy because said girl was a complete flake. She cancelled our dates a number of times, fed me many lies, acted interested when she really wasn't, and so much other shit I can't even remember anymore.

I see now that she only acted like she was "into me" because she wanted to get at someone else very special and intimate in my life. I was just a means to get her there. I can't help but feel used when I think about the whole situation.

Oh sure, I still want a girlfriend, but I need to be smarter about who I choose. And how I actually meet them is an entirelly different story. Where does a semi-attractive bisexual woman meet another of the same in her area?