crazygrrl

Last week was the two year anniversary of a life changing event. Absolutely the most difficult decision of my life. One that I knew had to happen for my own happiness, but I do regret causing the pain to someone I love. That sparked a series of events that have led me to Colorado and a completely different life. I never would have guessed that now, two years later, I'd be where I am today.

Soon after that (the fateful life altering decision two years ago) was also the start of a new relationship with someone I eventually fell in love with. Although he never truly earned it, he broke my heart. Both of them did. I still have anger and sadnes over both breakups with a touch of hopefulness that I will have the kind of closure and understanding I need. But I must let that go and move on with life. Things happen for a reason and there is so much to experience in life, so much to look forward to. I cannot dwell on the past and wish things were different because they aren't nor will they ever be. I must forgive myself.

Without a doubt, love is a challenge. I am hopeful that I will find it again.