I wish I could see the future. Why can't I stay mad why is my love so strong and so deep. Why wont it die it needs to die. WHY do the words she doesn't mean any thing shes no body shes boring and no she's not like us. Seem to make me feel better? Funny I always thought of my self as boring nerdy geeky girl. Who gives a shit what I look like or how my body is built. Or that I will have group sex with multiple people in one night and at the same time. The thing is I love to read watch moves talk about serial killers do research do my home work and watch zombie and horror movies. And I like to drink way to much if Im at the house or I don't have any responsabilitys and I know my friends have my back. Its so bad he is so like me it makes me sick. I will not ever admit it. Yes I use to lead people on never had any intension on doing any thing with them. I was just bored had to much time on my hands. But I can't even think of doing that any more sence i've hooked up with him. Makes me so mad 