Well..... I made it to San Diego in one piece. It was an uneventful ride. I love uneventful rides. I am here for three weeks and then I head to OR.
I am happy and excited. The lady I left behind is not. She keeps calling and text messaging me. I had no idea someone could get that attached in that short of time. My original plan was to move Monday and then it changed to tuesday because I was not fully packed. Here is why it changed.
Sunday she wanted to come over and I let her. She was sad and actually derailed me from my packing. In the back of my head I was thinking more than likely I will leave Tuesday now that she has slowed me down but after spending the morning with her pouting I realized I had to leave because I did not feel that much or even half that much for her. She's a cool girl but she knew what the end result would be. I told her in the beginning that I did not want a relationship in AZ because I was moving. She kept calling anyway. I feel a little guilty and a little bad but the bottom line is I was honest the whole time we were hanging out. Yesterday morning she had to go to work but she kept holding on to me and would not go. I kept telling her that she should not lose a job over this because in the end I was still leaving. She told me I could live with her and that was when I knew she did not get it. You do not quit a job and move across the country because you don't have a place to live. You get an apartment somewhere and keep working. It helped me realize that she did not understand me. I hated her for it. So once she finally left, I hit high gear loaded the car and left.
She told me that Monday was the only day she worked. So I knew if she came over again I would not get rid of her as easily. It was definately a motivator.
So here I am getting calls and sad messages. I have never wanted to cut ties so bad. I should have listened to my first instinct and never started anything with her. Hindsight is 20/20.
Just so you know I never told her I was leaving Tuesday. Something told me not to. So she was sure I was leaning Monday so in her mind I left when I said I was. So I packed in a rush and handed my keys over. I could not deal with it. I wanted to leave without telling her off and I knew if I had to deal with the sad act again I would tell her.
I don't do relationships well.
Here's to a new start! I will figure this out one day!
I am happy and excited. The lady I left behind is not. She keeps calling and text messaging me. I had no idea someone could get that attached in that short of time. My original plan was to move Monday and then it changed to tuesday because I was not fully packed. Here is why it changed.
Sunday she wanted to come over and I let her. She was sad and actually derailed me from my packing. In the back of my head I was thinking more than likely I will leave Tuesday now that she has slowed me down but after spending the morning with her pouting I realized I had to leave because I did not feel that much or even half that much for her. She's a cool girl but she knew what the end result would be. I told her in the beginning that I did not want a relationship in AZ because I was moving. She kept calling anyway. I feel a little guilty and a little bad but the bottom line is I was honest the whole time we were hanging out. Yesterday morning she had to go to work but she kept holding on to me and would not go. I kept telling her that she should not lose a job over this because in the end I was still leaving. She told me I could live with her and that was when I knew she did not get it. You do not quit a job and move across the country because you don't have a place to live. You get an apartment somewhere and keep working. It helped me realize that she did not understand me. I hated her for it. So once she finally left, I hit high gear loaded the car and left.
She told me that Monday was the only day she worked. So I knew if she came over again I would not get rid of her as easily. It was definately a motivator.
So here I am getting calls and sad messages. I have never wanted to cut ties so bad. I should have listened to my first instinct and never started anything with her. Hindsight is 20/20.
Just so you know I never told her I was leaving Tuesday. Something told me not to. So she was sure I was leaning Monday so in her mind I left when I said I was. So I packed in a rush and handed my keys over. I could not deal with it. I wanted to leave without telling her off and I knew if I had to deal with the sad act again I would tell her.
I don't do relationships well.
Here's to a new start! I will figure this out one day!
Everything that happens in life happens for a reason. There was a reason you got together with her and there was a reason why she didn't want to let go.
Ce la vie. Carry on and find more people to take pics of that are flipping you off. lol. I think I might just take a pic of me to add to your collection ... just 'cause everyone needs to have a picture of me in their collection.
And BTW - I know that instant feeling of hate that you felt. Although ... I think of it more as disappointment, not hate. It's when you thought you had something between the two people and you find out that the thought patterns just don't mix like you thought they did. It's a humbling feeling and in a lot of ways ... it can be a great feeling. Other times it sucks ass.
And yes ... dial up does suck. Why do you think I like pictures more than movies? lol. Lot easier to DL.