crasscary

woman.
woe to man.
green eyes that hold my gaze,
then burn a hole through me.
I am in high school again, paralyzed; drowning in a sea of green looking for the slightest flicker or sign to tell me which way to swim.... Instead of a (love)life preserver, I get a cinder block thrown.
Again, bewitching limpid eyes have become a brick wall in a dark alley. And I'm banging my head against it while someone closeby named alterego snores in his makeshift bed of garbage after a cheap mouthwash drinking bender theepitomeofloneliness. Again.
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I have been trying to re-enter the world of women that I might conceivably be able to touch in person someday. I'm beginning to think that's overly optimistic, though. I looked in the mirror today, and I don't appear to be a leper. So WTF?

On a more positive note, I passed into the seventh level in Kung Fu, and have my first demo on April first at an International Culture festival here in town. I guess I've had a little added energy to put into martial arts lately ;^)