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SO today I went to Mary Free Bed.. the rehabilitation center I spent 5 months in, to talk to the work counselor there. The awesome thing is that Center For Independent Living is in Orlando (~45 minutes away from where I want to live) and will help me find out about nurses.. help me live alone, and help me get a job.

Things are coming...
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So again.. my emotions get me.. is it wrong that I got emotional because of the Scrubs season AND series finale? It reminded me of my dad when JD and Cox hugged.. because the last memory I have of my dad is me giving him a early birthday present...he hugged me and died 4 days later (at home.. massive heart attack.. while he had a...
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So I have been thinking a lot today.. in between the web building and sleeping in my wheelchair and trying to sell shit.

A. I care a lot about Irish
B. I need a fucking window in the god damn basement
C. Why am I not in Florida already
D. Will I have enough to get/live in Florida
E. Can I live alone without ever...
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Love this song.

"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And Ive been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
Im fine...
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What is life if LOVE isn't had
What if a meaning ends up bad

Is it a waste if it we don't take a chance
Is it a waste if you took that chance

What if it gives you a reason to care
What is LIFE if love is nowhere

Is it a waste if we don't make an effort
Is it a waste if...
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Everyday I am amazed at her beauty, her caring, and her amazing smile when she shows it.


The smile
The eyes
The smile says so much and yet it says nothing at all
The eyes can kill but all I see is beauty

~Kevin Southerland

So. I am afraid ... I am afraid of what might be's and what might not.

I am scared that I am not good enough sometimes.. that I don't deserve anything because of my stupid choices.

I love the fact that Irish is coming up in June (if things go as .. well I guess they should be planned out soon huh ) But.. why...
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So...called my job case worker/helper

She wasn't in today, but I expect her to call back tomorrow and we will setup a meeting. We will discuss what and where I want for a job and then she will help me the best (fastest) she can.

I definitely want to work from home, but I wouldn't be opposed to working somewhere like a disability service office...
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So.

I get a tarot reading, mostly saying what I already know.

I think to myself very intent and very precise. I ask myself a question and I get "follow your intuition"

The most important questions to me were (love and will I get out of the wheelchair) BOTH followed by "You will overcome adversity"



I will never give up, and I do not want...
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So uh.. I love that I signed up for this website. I haven't really ever been into webcams because before I got hurt I was always outside, and frankly they sucked.

I have used chat rooms since the beggining and those were fun, but it really wasn't "real"

It took me a while to discover this whole webcam stuff, but I am glad that the...
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