crackerjak

so ive been having an awful week. a really good friend died last weekend and its been hell all week dealing with all that comes with that. now that i have had some time to get back on here ive realized that im back on the outside again. and it sucks trying to get into the conv on the groups and everything like that. it took me forever to get a half decent standing in there and now there are all new people and ive missed lots of gatherings and that sucks also. i dont know im also horrible at writing in journals, id prefer not to but then i cant be a part of these groups that im having trouble with because theyd consider me a lurker. on the bright side i had a comment on here for the first time in a long time. that shocked and pleased me. it doesnt hurt that she was super hott either......