damn im not sure when this life could get worse. everytime i get a vreath more shit just happens. i blame myself because i think i overreact and that its not that bad. but it really is. if life really is predestined. then i want to meet the person that lost me in a poker game. cause this sucks. i guess some are meant to live carefree and some arent. i dont know. i think it could be worse. but that doesnt nessecarily make me feel better. ok so my car dumped on me on my way to one of the two jobs i have to try and make it. so i might have lost that one. my friend adam is in the hospital, his lung collaosed and noone knows why. he is going to be ok, but they had to operate and his lung is still filling with shit. i dont know man im just tired of drama. life just sucks. i hope the next 27 years go a little better