cozybear

I've been feeling so lucky lately for having found my life partner so early in life. We met when we were just 20. Most people don't manage to stay together through the crazyness that is your 20's. Getting out of school, learning to be self sufficient, finding out who you are and what you want to do with yourself. I think we're actually a better match for each other now after all the growing than we were before.

I used to have some doubts before, but for the last 3 years I haven't. It took me falling in love with another man to be sure. I used to feel horrible about it, but I think it needed to happen. I had crazy ideas in my head that maybe with a different person the infatuation stage would never go away, and that the sex would always be frenzied with no extra work on my part. I had crazy sexual chemistry with the other guy and it didn't take long for the crazy passion to start to fade. This was even with it being this bad forbidden thing that almost killed my relationship. I used to think it was up to my partner to keep everything exciting and passionate. I have no idea where this came from. I noticed I was being more sexually open with other people and decided I could be that way with my boy too. I think things were getting a bit stagnant when all the badness happened. We've both gotten better at making sure that doesn't happen now.

So it's been over 9 years now and I'm more in love and we're having better sex than ever before.

I'm sure you guys don't really care, but it's been on my mind a lot.

He was at the library yesterday and brought a sewing book home for me. Awwwww.