ugh - just got back from sf like 30 minutes ago after a nightmarish ride home with rain, winds, traffic, and stuff. and now, i'm heading back out for another 330 miles of driving up to santa rosa. i'm fooking insane.
the girls were amazing, the bands not exciting (but i bought all the buttons they had to offer anyway, 'cause i'm a dork like...
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the girls were amazing, the bands not exciting (but i bought all the buttons they had to offer anyway, 'cause i'm a dork like...
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i'm up, showered, dressed, packed, ready to go, and it's not even 9am yet! i don't normally even roll out of bed until sometime well after noon, and it's reluctantly at that!
i awoke to a phone call from one of my very first loves from something like 17 years ago! i spoke to him for the first time in nearly 10 years last week...
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i awoke to a phone call from one of my very first loves from something like 17 years ago! i spoke to him for the first time in nearly 10 years last week...
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trilobyte:
First off, don't break San Francisco. It factors into my plans for 2004 somehow lol...
Second, sounds like the beginnings of a great day and weekend.
Third, boo on the ex's who torment... I've got one of those that, 8 1/2 years later, still can't just move on. Sounds like you're dealing well though, kudos and cheers! Have a great trip!!!
love and murder,
Second, sounds like the beginnings of a great day and weekend.
Third, boo on the ex's who torment... I've got one of those that, 8 1/2 years later, still can't just move on. Sounds like you're dealing well though, kudos and cheers! Have a great trip!!!
love and murder,
antiprincess:
Yay for the show and meeting you awesome people!! I hope you had as much fun as I did.
i'm heading off downtown now to go play with my kilted boytoy and my lesbian lover. tomorrow is her birthday and she wants me to meet her downtown for a drink and a replay of our (near) live sex act from new year's.
as exciting as that sounds, i am floating and giddy with excitement for nothing other than the san francisco roadtrip ebin and...
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susannahjoy:
i hate bakersfield. i want out. so am i doing? going to bc. yup. *sighs*
scattershot:
wow thank you for the compliments 
i dropped all my classes last quarter, but when i say "drop" i actually mean i took F's in them since actually dropping would've been a withdrawal from the university and have resulted in my being forced to repay my financial aid as well as not qualifying for aid this quarter and possibly not even being able to attend since i'd have to reapply, etc....
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klonopin_chugger:
na can't make the tour tomorrow, i've got a meeting i have to attend tomorrow. 
yea when i fail/drop a class it makes me deppressed/angry/and i get a gonna conquer the world attitude, too bad it usually only lasts a couple of weeks.
yea when i fail/drop a class it makes me deppressed/angry/and i get a gonna conquer the world attitude, too bad it usually only lasts a couple of weeks.
corsetqueen:
ah, it wasn't failing a class alone that did that to me; it was a combination of:
being driven mad by the man i gave my life up for, finding squirrely ways to fight cancer without insurance, attempting to save a dying relationship only to lose it anyway, long after losing every friend i'd ever had and isolating myself from my family, having 5 days to move with no money, no job, and not knowing anyone within 330 miles of me because my man decided he hadn't tormented me enough, accepting that my daughter wasn't coming down to live with me after all, failing classes in bonehead subjects when i was a 4.0 student who got recruited to cornell on a full scholarship without even applying, kicking self in head for enrolling in cal state bakersfield instead of accepting above-mentioned cornell offer, being alone and hungry on holidays...
i can go on, but i'm starting to sound like i'm looking for a pity party and i'm over it. it's time to realize that 1) i can't die, 2) i won't die quietly when i finally can, 3) my invincibility must mean something, and 4) i'm going to renew my faith in the following 2 life mottos:
a) i live to prove all y'all wrong
b) it's better to regret something you have done than to regret something you haven't done (thank you, butthole surfers)
joy!!!!
being driven mad by the man i gave my life up for, finding squirrely ways to fight cancer without insurance, attempting to save a dying relationship only to lose it anyway, long after losing every friend i'd ever had and isolating myself from my family, having 5 days to move with no money, no job, and not knowing anyone within 330 miles of me because my man decided he hadn't tormented me enough, accepting that my daughter wasn't coming down to live with me after all, failing classes in bonehead subjects when i was a 4.0 student who got recruited to cornell on a full scholarship without even applying, kicking self in head for enrolling in cal state bakersfield instead of accepting above-mentioned cornell offer, being alone and hungry on holidays...
i can go on, but i'm starting to sound like i'm looking for a pity party and i'm over it. it's time to realize that 1) i can't die, 2) i won't die quietly when i finally can, 3) my invincibility must mean something, and 4) i'm going to renew my faith in the following 2 life mottos:
a) i live to prove all y'all wrong
b) it's better to regret something you have done than to regret something you haven't done (thank you, butthole surfers)
joy!!!!
ohmygodohmygodohmygod! here i was, sitting here all perplexed that one of my classes was cancelled and what the heck was i going to replace it with since csub has ridiculously low class availability, when i realized that the lovely DCLXVI gave me my first testimonial! i feel so embraced! it's another beautiful day in my world! thank you, you oh-too-good-to-be-true lady!
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trilobyte:
:: Like you even have to ask.... 
So now I'm intrigued, spill it, spill it! I'm interested in note-comparison, but dying to hear more about the lightning. I just always figured it liked me
hehehe... well, that and I know my body's electrical/magnetic system is wired differently (watch batteries last 3-5 times longer than they should on me, I can't ride those gravity drop rides like the rotor at carnivals, etc)...
love and murder,
: Like you even have to ask....
So now I'm intrigued, spill it, spill it! I'm interested in note-comparison, but dying to hear more about the lightning. I just always figured it liked me
hehehe... well, that and I know my body's electrical/magnetic system is wired differently (watch batteries last 3-5 times longer than they should on me, I can't ride those gravity drop rides like the rotor at carnivals, etc)...
love and murder,
tracyramone:
enjoy your pineapple!
i am feeling so much better than i have in a long time. i faced my family head-on instead of scampering around hiding and making excuses for not seeing them or masking the truth of my existence the last few months. i told my story, told it how it was and is, i acted like a grown-up and it felt f*in rad! i did the...
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dclxvi:
Coudln't be happier that I am getting to know you. Sometimes I need other people's BS to remind me that my life isn't so unique.
I just sent Ebin The Decline of Western Civilization on DVD - tell him to pop it in and give you a good laugh or two about his "mispent youth" when it gets there.
Sorry we won't see you at the burlesque show Saturday.
I just sent Ebin The Decline of Western Civilization on DVD - tell him to pop it in and give you a good laugh or two about his "mispent youth" when it gets there.
Sorry we won't see you at the burlesque show Saturday.
jj_r0x0rz:
whooho! pirates booty arrg!
hi! i'm finally here so ebin can stop being my message man. i'm sleepy-sleepy and have spent all my inspirational psycho-babble on the profile, thus have nothing left for y'all. oh, except 'happy new year' to all you fabulous people that i sooooo immensely enjoyed the company of not that long ago. i hope we can run into each other tomorrow (tonight) when ebin and...
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jj_r0x0rz:
thanks for the pictures!!! 
hehe woohoo! hope to hang out with you again!
[Edited on Jan 03, 2004 10:24AM]
hehe woohoo! hope to hang out with you again!
[Edited on Jan 03, 2004 10:24AM]
ebin:
I just Mexican food and strawberry shortcake for dessert. 
I'm going to explode
I'm going to explode
The burlesque show was fun - I'll share a few pics with you when you get a chance.
Come back safely.