corsetqueen

just finished my first week of work in nearly two years and i'm sooooo tired. besides that, i feel good about having done it, though, and getting through it without my usual turmoil of getting sick or something.

spent the night with erikill last night. weirdness. went over to have dinner with him and we were going to watch a movie but got in an argument over something so lame i don't even know what it was about. next thing, i'm crying and leaving and he's begging me to stay and so i do then we got into a discussion about how many people i'm sleeping with and i was trying to leave again because he was being all sarcastic about me being a liar when i said just him so he was back to asking me to stay so i did, after we discussed sarcasm and honesty issues.

reflecting back on the whole thing, i think his sarcastic insult was more of a self-defense thing, not actual doubt about me, since we're both reluctant to ever nurse broken hearts again. so, i shouldn't be so sensitive, and should try to remember perspectives like this while the event is happening so i can be sweet and reassuring, not emotional and teary.

then we had rockin' good sex this morning and i smiled all day long.

i dig that man. maybe santa rosa isn't so bad after all?