Oh I figured out why I'm acting like such a fucking spazoid. PMS!!! Maybe its actually PMDD and I need more drugs, cuz the tv told me buy them. Right now, I feel blank. Nothing really satisfying me at the moment. No beer, no drugs, no cigs, no people, no music, no books, no tv. I tried it all. I can't sleep. Maybe I should take a pill for that. And I've been shitting so much today my ass is bleeding. No anal for me I guess. And I figured out what to call my "religion" or "beliefs" or whatever. Most people I know who know me and such know that I don't believe in free will and I think that everyones life is already set in stone. When we die, what we do....and so forth. I've always just referred to it as FATE. But its actually the Greek goddesses called "The Fates" aka:Moirae which include the 3 dieties:
Clotho, the spinner, who spun the thread of a person's life
Lachesis, the apportioner, who decided how much time was to be allowed each person
Atropos, the inevitable, who cut the thread when you were supposed to die
which I did not know until I googled it, then those 3 names rung a bell. They were mentioned in Stephen Kings "Insomnia"....so thinking back, it was a pretty good book. Atropos was obviously the "bad" guy. At least I have some sort of system in my life. Mind you, I don't just "let things happen" and be lazy about shit. I try to live my life as good as I deem fit, but some things are beyond my control, and I know this and don't dwell on the past or what could have been or if I did something wrong, I just think...as a Christian would "well....its in 'gods' plan"...or in my case "its in 'the fates' hands". Sound good to you? TOUGH SHIT THEN!!
Clotho, the spinner, who spun the thread of a person's life
Lachesis, the apportioner, who decided how much time was to be allowed each person
Atropos, the inevitable, who cut the thread when you were supposed to die
which I did not know until I googled it, then those 3 names rung a bell. They were mentioned in Stephen Kings "Insomnia"....so thinking back, it was a pretty good book. Atropos was obviously the "bad" guy. At least I have some sort of system in my life. Mind you, I don't just "let things happen" and be lazy about shit. I try to live my life as good as I deem fit, but some things are beyond my control, and I know this and don't dwell on the past or what could have been or if I did something wrong, I just think...as a Christian would "well....its in 'gods' plan"...or in my case "its in 'the fates' hands". Sound good to you? TOUGH SHIT THEN!!