Okay... so ASU is totally and completely pissing me off. I tried to deal with their financial aid department, saying I can't cover 3k till I get my last paycheck, and that'll happen today friday, so it'll be in the bank by monday.(today) They said oh tough shit nothing we can do... so magically on aug 2nd all my fucking classes got dropped. Then on friday they called me to tell me that I can now re-register for the classes that were dropped. THANKS... THAT ... IS.. SO... HELPFUL. pricks. So today when the check cleared, I went to sign up for the classes and ofcourse they are full. So I guess I could take bullshit classes that I do need, but I don't actually care. They informed me I need to take SPECIFIC classes this semester and next semester because they are changing my program and no longer offering said classes. This means "you're grandfathered if you can take the classes before we stop offering them." This means the classes are also FULL UP like you wouldn't believe. So I guess I get to go first week and BEG my way into the classes I need, or go see if I can get a job this fall. Hmmm wonder what UA in Tucson is like this time of year...
My responce to having my life just kinda up in the air waiting to see where the dice may fall is... going to Vegas. Isn't that beautiful? haha. So i'm sitting here planning my weekend trip to vegas and listening to Stabbing Westward, "desperate now" comes on, and I can't think of how appropriate it is to the moment.
""I keep breaking all the promises that I keep making to myself.
You'd think by now that I'd be over this... instead of feeling sorry for myself.
So why does everything seem desperate now?
I should be feeling so alive."
To rant a little more, I think i'll choose the topic of commitment issues.
I don't have commitment issues,
I am just an extremely selfish person when it comes to my own time.
I probably don't want to talk for 2 hours every day, AND see you twice a week.
That is called stalking, not dating.
When I've been dating (someone) for a year, talk of moving in together is completely reasonable.
It is, however, not reasonable to tell me you have a 4-year plan for me.
In 4-years you want to be married, have one kid, maybe working on another, a house, and pets.
Isn't that a bit much to put on someone's shoulders?
I certainly could never put all my hopes and dreams and future all in one compact package, hand it to someone and say "hey could you carry this for me?"
I just don't need that kinda baggage.
If I don't want to carry baggage, I don't bring my own... i don't want to hold yours either.
its not that I never want to get married, either. Its also not the case I don't ever want kids. I just don't want to raise kids without being stable because I want to give my kids the world when I do have them. Marrige is not a joke to me, everyone seems to jump into it so fast then back out of it just as easily. That is a life long commitment, that is not easily broken. I intend to NEVER get divorced if I get married, and that carries a heavy burden. Marrige to me is a perminate thing. Period. I look forward to it, but I do NOT take it lightly.
Maybe its not that I have commitment issues, maybe its just that I'm a more commited person when I do commit? Hmmm... who knows.
ANYWAY, the new relationship is going fine, nothing like my rant... thats about my past two relationships that I still have to deal with the people from every once in a while. Winnie works at the hospital and goes to school for a chemical engineering major so doesnt have time to even consider stalking me like that(haha).
I get the feeling this is going to be a really freaking long post when I hit save entry, so I'll just say hope everyone has a great monday! See ya at modified those that are going!(sucks that SOAD are in town tonight too, I think.)
- icy
My responce to having my life just kinda up in the air waiting to see where the dice may fall is... going to Vegas. Isn't that beautiful? haha. So i'm sitting here planning my weekend trip to vegas and listening to Stabbing Westward, "desperate now" comes on, and I can't think of how appropriate it is to the moment.
""I keep breaking all the promises that I keep making to myself.
You'd think by now that I'd be over this... instead of feeling sorry for myself.
So why does everything seem desperate now?
I should be feeling so alive."
To rant a little more, I think i'll choose the topic of commitment issues.
I don't have commitment issues,
I am just an extremely selfish person when it comes to my own time.
I probably don't want to talk for 2 hours every day, AND see you twice a week.
That is called stalking, not dating.
When I've been dating (someone) for a year, talk of moving in together is completely reasonable.
It is, however, not reasonable to tell me you have a 4-year plan for me.
In 4-years you want to be married, have one kid, maybe working on another, a house, and pets.
Isn't that a bit much to put on someone's shoulders?
I certainly could never put all my hopes and dreams and future all in one compact package, hand it to someone and say "hey could you carry this for me?"
I just don't need that kinda baggage.
If I don't want to carry baggage, I don't bring my own... i don't want to hold yours either.
its not that I never want to get married, either. Its also not the case I don't ever want kids. I just don't want to raise kids without being stable because I want to give my kids the world when I do have them. Marrige is not a joke to me, everyone seems to jump into it so fast then back out of it just as easily. That is a life long commitment, that is not easily broken. I intend to NEVER get divorced if I get married, and that carries a heavy burden. Marrige to me is a perminate thing. Period. I look forward to it, but I do NOT take it lightly.
Maybe its not that I have commitment issues, maybe its just that I'm a more commited person when I do commit? Hmmm... who knows.
ANYWAY, the new relationship is going fine, nothing like my rant... thats about my past two relationships that I still have to deal with the people from every once in a while. Winnie works at the hospital and goes to school for a chemical engineering major so doesnt have time to even consider stalking me like that(haha).
I get the feeling this is going to be a really freaking long post when I hit save entry, so I'll just say hope everyone has a great monday! See ya at modified those that are going!(sucks that SOAD are in town tonight too, I think.)
- icy