cornelius

Better off dead will ALWAYS rule

ah, thanks for the lovely visual about stepping on my brain.

RE: Your post on the Patsy Cline thread:

I've been thinking that for awhile. It's kinda scary.

This was not personal. All inactive members were eliminated from the group after ample time was given for people to post on staying in the group. Sometimes events are planned on the fly, and our group is not one to be checked every few weeks. It is specified as a local group for *ACTIVE* members of the community. If you don't post and you don't come to events, then you don't belong in the group. Personally as a participater, it seems a bit invasive for people who have no intent on joijning you to be peering in at your activities, even if on an infrequent basis.

That said, if the group is that important to you, I suggest you apply to join again. This time make it count

heh... if i quit feeling sorry for myself, what the hell would i do with all my free time?

i really did not take being removed personally; i totally understand. a lot of times i re-read what i write on here and i sort of regret it. it is meant to be an on-the-fly catharsis, more for me personally than anything else.

i didn't mean to sound so whiney... thanks for reminding me that if it really was that important to me, i would have given it a much higher priority. i actually do have some sort of a mental problem dealing with social situations, and am much more at ease behind a terminal than i am in real life.

-bobby

Hey man,
Kinji Fukasaku directs Battle royal.. Beat Takeshi stars as a villain/tyrant a person can easily love to hate. My friend lent me the film for a couple of weeks. I still have to track it down myself.. ... now this video you told me about.. that has me interested. I will keep a look out for it. oh yeah.

[Edited on Aug 14, 2003]

You'll find your thing that sets you off. It may take a bit and when you do find it it may not hit you at first, but eventually you will find your Golden Ticket. Just make sure that when you do find your motivation that you hold onto it. Don't let it slip your grasp because it's hard to get back. After I fucked up my ankle it was hard to get back and start hitting the gym again. But I read over some of my journals and stuff I wrote when I first had a meltdown and it all started to come back. I now realize that anger is a gift if used in a productive manner. And I would suggest keeping a journal also. It'll help you remember why you are pushing yourself when your body wants to forget.

Have you ever seen the import movie Battle Royal? That movie is ill.. I still have a hard time comprehending that a movie like that would come out of Japan. I still like it, and if you love to see japanese school girls wielding Automatic weapons and binoculars..here is your fix.

I'm experiencing something very similar right now and I still don't know what to say.

I'm so sorry for you. A heart attack claimed my father in Feb. of '01 and I was crushed. Its never good to lose someone you care about.

-c

this wooosh is familiar. can we be friends? i'll look for you at the aquabats show.

i didn't know which stores in the valley were the best. i've been to zia, eastside, and stinkweeds. not sure any of them impressed me. i guess there's something more than just finding the music you want.... there's a vibe too. so maybe i should check out karma.

I never abandoned my name. When did I abandon my name?

Listen, it was all a joke, and in poor taste.

The thing is, ever since Fight Club, when I can, I sign on to something as Cornelius. When I have to wear dumb nametags, I write Cornelius on them. My computer's name (my upstairs one, anyway; my downstairs computer's name is Rupert) is Cornelius.

So when I signed on to Suicide Girls, after you did, and tried to use Cornelius as a screenname, and it was taken, I was shocked. And appalled. I think I may be over it now, though.