she lied... she's a dirty liar and i fell for it... she was just being polite and i was in denial... she said she was saving my feelings but instead she was devouring my dead, rabbit-eared affection... i shoulda known, i probably saw it coming and i just ignored it like so much else in my zombie life...
so, so much for muses... so much for beauty and so much for inspiration... i'm back to lighting my own fires with visceral kindling and strike anywhere foreign substances...
i could analyze what went wrong but deep inside i knew the ship would sink all along... hope got the best of me, that stupid little glimmer tricked me into thinking that all the details i paid attention to would rub off in the long run...
the whole time she was accepting my gifts with feigned interest, basking in the attention but fucking someone else, letting me flaunt my art while witholding the real truth... she's bleeding my heart, bleeding me dry, leading me on, loving every minute of it.
i'm not a statistic damnit! i'm not some fucking archtype on mystery date! my heart is not a padlock to be purchased in a 99 cent store and left to rust on graduation day!
-bobby
so, so much for muses... so much for beauty and so much for inspiration... i'm back to lighting my own fires with visceral kindling and strike anywhere foreign substances...
i could analyze what went wrong but deep inside i knew the ship would sink all along... hope got the best of me, that stupid little glimmer tricked me into thinking that all the details i paid attention to would rub off in the long run...
the whole time she was accepting my gifts with feigned interest, basking in the attention but fucking someone else, letting me flaunt my art while witholding the real truth... she's bleeding my heart, bleeding me dry, leading me on, loving every minute of it.
i'm not a statistic damnit! i'm not some fucking archtype on mystery date! my heart is not a padlock to be purchased in a 99 cent store and left to rust on graduation day!
-bobby
sjtwelve:
beautiful