Sorry, SG. I've been severely neglectful. It happens. Mostly, I've been distracted by two things.
1. The break-up.
2. The new relationship.
#1 wasn't bothering me a whole lot for the first month or so, because I was enjoying my freedom, getting wasted nonstop, being super horny and having a lot of fun with friends. But then I met #2, and I really liked #2, and the closer I got to #2 the more I thought about #1. Eventually, I loved #2, but it was marred by my constant dwelling on #1 and I started to worry that this would eventually have serious negative consequences on #2. So I told #2, yesterday, that I wanted to put on the brakes for a little while and work through the bad feelings I've been haunted by lately. #2 was incredibly understanding and level-headed about the whole thing. I only hope I can make it up to #2 someday and show her what an incredible and incredibly devoted partner-in-crime I can be when I'm not dragging a commercial fishing net worth of emotional baggage behind me. I hope I don't lose #2. I really do love her.
I also love Jaron. Not in the same way anymore. But I hope I can make it up to him someday as well. And I hope he redevelops the desire to know me. Because I miss the fuck out of him every single day.
The endish.
1. The break-up.
2. The new relationship.
#1 wasn't bothering me a whole lot for the first month or so, because I was enjoying my freedom, getting wasted nonstop, being super horny and having a lot of fun with friends. But then I met #2, and I really liked #2, and the closer I got to #2 the more I thought about #1. Eventually, I loved #2, but it was marred by my constant dwelling on #1 and I started to worry that this would eventually have serious negative consequences on #2. So I told #2, yesterday, that I wanted to put on the brakes for a little while and work through the bad feelings I've been haunted by lately. #2 was incredibly understanding and level-headed about the whole thing. I only hope I can make it up to #2 someday and show her what an incredible and incredibly devoted partner-in-crime I can be when I'm not dragging a commercial fishing net worth of emotional baggage behind me. I hope I don't lose #2. I really do love her.
I also love Jaron. Not in the same way anymore. But I hope I can make it up to him someday as well. And I hope he redevelops the desire to know me. Because I miss the fuck out of him every single day.
The endish.
lil_tuffy:
I wondered where you went.
lil_tuffy:
I will be back tomorrow barring any sort of natural disastor. I'm way drunk right now.