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What to say what to say....

I know I should have allot to write about, and I do... but am I in the mood???

ok, lets start w/ hopes of a new career.... when I arrived here I promptly posted my resume on the interweb in hopes of finding a job for the summer. I thus received an email from an insurance company wanting me to come in for an interview. I of course didn't take it.... you may ask "Why you fool???" well, to answer, I wasn't ready, I wasn't sure how long I'd be here and I didn't want to commit to a career and find out that I wasn't able to travel back to ON for, well, my reasons.....

Now, jump ahead to two weeks ago... at this point I have decided that I should stay here in BC, and I've been contact w/ the insurance company that initially contacted me. They wanted me in for an interview. So I prepare, get a new coat, borrow a dress shirt and shoes from JHM and head out, and, well, nail the interview. I'm Ernie Cline in his Job Interview rant (if you don't' know it, I'll send it to you). I leave happy, and go home and prepare for Thanks Giving.

Just before I head out to Whistler (see last post) I get a call. The big boss wants to see me for the last interview, so I'm excited, and they tell me to do research and bring questions; so I do. Bad Mistake, well, no, fortunate for me. I discover that this company has several bad claims against them, I don't want to get into it, just know that its bad, the kind of bad you only hear about in movies (the word "fraud" comes up allot). So now I'm skeptical, but I decided I'd show up for the interview.

Its a whole different world when you don't actually care about the outcome of the interview. I show up and do the interview, I'm more glib then usual and answer questions in a way that SHOULD of made them question why they should hire me. I finish the interview, and I'm asked to wait outside. I of course get the job.


I started a rant (need a better description then "rants"?!?!) about hopes b/c of this. When I passed the first interview I started to get my hopes up. Now, I don't show this ever, but it doesn't mean I don't have them. And I started thinking about the kinds of opportunities I'd have to experience w/ this career, and, well, I was excited, and now that's gone. Not pleased, on top of that I took time off to prepare for the interviews, and now I'm rather poor, so I'm back where I started... I hate this at the moment...


Well, since then I've declined that job. And now I'm looking for something else, and something good. I just have to choose something, and that's the hardest part. I've always had difficulty w/ this. I (like everyone else on the planet) want to do something that matters. But what matters to me??? huh... wish I know....

so here I remain, a Jack-Of-All-Trades, a Gen X'r, a guy, a human being; lost, searching, and writing in a blog, capturing this moment for all to see.....

Now, don't get me wrong, I don't think so highly of myself that I'm the only, the singular entity, the solo person who is in this boat.... I'm just writing what I'm thinking... just getting it out... getting back into writing....

So, in finally, in conclusion, this is the end.... If anyone has inspiration, send it over to me, I could us it.





Well, it would seem that I was in the mood to write.... interesting.... now, its bed time, I'm off to sleep... oh, if anyone out there has extra shoes and wants to bring me out to lighthouse park for some bouldering, then by all means, email me...

G'Night Everyone