..been thinking how its funny how the people that I've only known for the past couple years are calling me an alcoholic.... I know why, its b/c I didn't drink, I stopped drinking all together, went straight edge, and liked it.... but now, I started to drink again, only on social occasions, only if its a party, and since I got back on xmas day, then it was new years, then my bday, then two other friends bdays since, and a handful of other gatherings, it totally seems like I'm drinking all the time... and yes, I have been drinking on all these occasions.... its just that time of year... would of done the same 5 years ago.... and hell, not like I'm paying for anything.... I haven't spent one cent at a bar since I got back, since every time we're out I see someone who hasnt' seen me since I left, so they buy me a drink or seven......
on another note. my pockets are full all the time been carrying allot of my stuff w/ me.. stuff I cant leave behind at my friends places b/c I sometimes cant get back in when I want.and so, I have in my pants pockets right now, a book (Day of the Triffids, so far, so good), bandana, flashlight, pocket knife, lighter, passport, wallet, pen, gum, art book by Mark Rydan, my application to graduate, five different job postings from the paper, four different training sheets, knife, a note from my Mom, charger for my ipod, ipod, phone, note book w/ pencil, the cables and charger for my camera, and a tape adapter. but of course, I like to have full pockets..I love pockets.. wonder if I could body mod 2 pockets in the side of my legs!!?!?!?! prob. a bad idea Ill just forget that now.
Enders Clarity
Do you know the two parts in Enders Game where they put too much pressure upon him??? So much pressure that he realizes that everything being thrown at him doesnt matter................the enemys gate is down. I'm there.... its nice....clear again......
What brought this on??? Been thinking, thinking about everything..like my old man bitching at me. I really dont care anymore. it just hit me, Ive always cared about disappointing people, and I hate doing it, and thats all Ive been getting from him, about how Im lost, and dont know anything about what to do, but I did manage to make it on the other side of the world, I budgeted everything, EVERYTHING, I knew exactly where all my money was going, and keep myself alive and well, thats something, allot dont think so, but I do. But now, you know what, even if I knew what I wanted to do, Id be off doing that, then, w/ the way the economy is, the way the world is now, Id end up having to find something different a couple years after anyhow, people dont stay in one job their entire life anymore, its few and far between that do. So why was I worried.... Im a great worker Ive worked hard at every job Ive had, and have had great feed back from my employers, its just this lull, the unforgiving minute if you will; I just havent put in my 60sec worth of distance run yet. yet.
Now, as for my best friend not wanting to live w/ me. well, that sucks but whatever not going to cry about it granted we had the plans, the place all set up, I have a big stockpile of food, and really, Ive always wanted to live w/ someone, and why not my best friend, needless to say I was pumped. But thats gone now, so I guess Ill be shopping for places now. I do have a friend that has an extra room. going to try there first..
Oh, also, Im getting scared to talk about Oz now. Most people dont want to hear about it anyhow, like what was different, what I miss and such people only want to hear between one and three things..
1. Youve seen a kangaroo,
2. Youve had fun, got drunk, and held up our Canadian honor,
3. Random oddity, i.e., they drive on the left-hand side, they eat vegemite, nobody there drinks fosters, etc.
. thats all the rest of the stories are just a reminder that they didnt do it, or that youre bragging and need to be knocked down a notch..
Ok, this turned into a really long post I need sleep now. GNight
on another note. my pockets are full all the time been carrying allot of my stuff w/ me.. stuff I cant leave behind at my friends places b/c I sometimes cant get back in when I want.and so, I have in my pants pockets right now, a book (Day of the Triffids, so far, so good), bandana, flashlight, pocket knife, lighter, passport, wallet, pen, gum, art book by Mark Rydan, my application to graduate, five different job postings from the paper, four different training sheets, knife, a note from my Mom, charger for my ipod, ipod, phone, note book w/ pencil, the cables and charger for my camera, and a tape adapter. but of course, I like to have full pockets..I love pockets.. wonder if I could body mod 2 pockets in the side of my legs!!?!?!?! prob. a bad idea Ill just forget that now.
Enders Clarity
Do you know the two parts in Enders Game where they put too much pressure upon him??? So much pressure that he realizes that everything being thrown at him doesnt matter................the enemys gate is down. I'm there.... its nice....clear again......
What brought this on??? Been thinking, thinking about everything..like my old man bitching at me. I really dont care anymore. it just hit me, Ive always cared about disappointing people, and I hate doing it, and thats all Ive been getting from him, about how Im lost, and dont know anything about what to do, but I did manage to make it on the other side of the world, I budgeted everything, EVERYTHING, I knew exactly where all my money was going, and keep myself alive and well, thats something, allot dont think so, but I do. But now, you know what, even if I knew what I wanted to do, Id be off doing that, then, w/ the way the economy is, the way the world is now, Id end up having to find something different a couple years after anyhow, people dont stay in one job their entire life anymore, its few and far between that do. So why was I worried.... Im a great worker Ive worked hard at every job Ive had, and have had great feed back from my employers, its just this lull, the unforgiving minute if you will; I just havent put in my 60sec worth of distance run yet. yet.
Now, as for my best friend not wanting to live w/ me. well, that sucks but whatever not going to cry about it granted we had the plans, the place all set up, I have a big stockpile of food, and really, Ive always wanted to live w/ someone, and why not my best friend, needless to say I was pumped. But thats gone now, so I guess Ill be shopping for places now. I do have a friend that has an extra room. going to try there first..
Oh, also, Im getting scared to talk about Oz now. Most people dont want to hear about it anyhow, like what was different, what I miss and such people only want to hear between one and three things..
1. Youve seen a kangaroo,
2. Youve had fun, got drunk, and held up our Canadian honor,
3. Random oddity, i.e., they drive on the left-hand side, they eat vegemite, nobody there drinks fosters, etc.
. thats all the rest of the stories are just a reminder that they didnt do it, or that youre bragging and need to be knocked down a notch..
Ok, this turned into a really long post I need sleep now. GNight