Recently, I had someone send me a message about how I should be a hopeful because my pictures were lovely. I definitely am for those who weren't certain on that; I'm hopeful to be a hopeful and I've been dreaming big. So far, despite having two sets rejected, I've kept my head up and continued shooting, because I know that I will get it right. I'm determined to make it.
The reason I became so interested in Suicide Girls is because it was a world where I could finally fit in. I've grown up in a Midwest town that is full of close minded individuals. There was never much room for diversity and only few of us were ever truly able to find ourselves. I'm sure there's still more of myself to find and I won't ever give up on finding it, but this is who I am.
So far though, Suicide Girls has changed my life for the better. I have gained a new found confidence and no longer feel the need to body shame myself. I no longer feel the need for validation constantly, despite the fact that I do receive it more often than I did before. I have become happy with the person I am and the skin I am in, which is something I had always wanted. For the first time in my life, I feel beautiful inside and out, which is the best thing I could ever wish for someone.
The nude pictures in this blog are actually the first I've ever posted and it feels good to shed new light on myself. I haven't posted any thus far because I felt unsure, but I have come to love myself the way I am. The greatest thing in life is just simply to love yourself. Thank you to Suicide Girls for finally helping me realize that.
Blog homework assigned by @rambo and @missy
