corabelle

N's parents sent us a couple of books as holiday presents. they gave me a vegetarian cookbook. its a great gift because gifts should be things you would love to have and could really use but would never buy yourself. maybe i'll use if to make some yummy things to eat on x-mas....

its that goddam time of the month again. that time when all these disorganized and reasonless emotions start spilling out of me and i become a flood of insecurity. i'm not too sure if the depo provera was as bad as i was making it out to be. it was almost worth brutally fucking with my hormones to not to feel like a such wierdo. anywho, i hope most people just disregarded this paragraph. nonsense and rambling.

i'm beginning to notice how much of toll its taking on me not to have a close lady friend around. you know? a good person that knows how you work and can listen to you bitch and still love you. i never realized how much you can really need somebody until you notice how long its been since somebody has been there for you. just to remind you how lucky you were.