So I had an eventful past few days. Good and bad.
Started shitty; accidentally hit the car next to me with my broke ass door. The guy didn't say anything. Went to Buffalo Wild Wings and got tasty chicken! Then there was a huuuuge heat storm!! Beautiful lightning.
So we went to my friends party downtown and played in the rain! It was beautiful and amazingly freeing.
That was Thursday. Today I had an awesome day as well. Went downtown and got new Prismacolor pencils! And a case for them too! And I got Jamba Juice- Caribbean Passion yum
Blah blah hung out with my friend from Hawaii.
Got in a huge fight with my boyfriend. Over something stupid as usual and blown out of proportion to the point of me crying. And he did a complete 180 from what he normally is like, so he must have alot on his mind.
And now I'm not sure if I have a boyfriend any more. And frankly, it's killing me. He's not talking to me. I'm so confused and lost right now. I just wish I could be with him right now. I tried to be strong and stand up for myself by telling him to call me when he was ready to have an adult conversation. when and if. Then I walked out the door and cried the entire 20 minute drive back to my house.
And now here I am. having to wake up in less that 6 hours for work. He didn't call and he apparently went and hung out with friends. Probably not having a second thought. As usual. Ignoring it, and forgetting on how I am.
And of course I'm blaming myself. Because I'm stupid like that.
I keep thinking he's not going to choose me. And I'm going to look like the dumbass.
Last huge argument, he said to give him one last chance; and that if he fucked that one up, he didn't deserve me. So.......I don't know what to do.
The Only Thing- Stabbing Westward
pretty much sums it up. Love the song. Love the band. Hate how much it's true right now.
Started shitty; accidentally hit the car next to me with my broke ass door. The guy didn't say anything. Went to Buffalo Wild Wings and got tasty chicken! Then there was a huuuuge heat storm!! Beautiful lightning.
So we went to my friends party downtown and played in the rain! It was beautiful and amazingly freeing.
That was Thursday. Today I had an awesome day as well. Went downtown and got new Prismacolor pencils! And a case for them too! And I got Jamba Juice- Caribbean Passion yum
Blah blah hung out with my friend from Hawaii.
Got in a huge fight with my boyfriend. Over something stupid as usual and blown out of proportion to the point of me crying. And he did a complete 180 from what he normally is like, so he must have alot on his mind.
And now I'm not sure if I have a boyfriend any more. And frankly, it's killing me. He's not talking to me. I'm so confused and lost right now. I just wish I could be with him right now. I tried to be strong and stand up for myself by telling him to call me when he was ready to have an adult conversation. when and if. Then I walked out the door and cried the entire 20 minute drive back to my house.
And now here I am. having to wake up in less that 6 hours for work. He didn't call and he apparently went and hung out with friends. Probably not having a second thought. As usual. Ignoring it, and forgetting on how I am.
And of course I'm blaming myself. Because I'm stupid like that.
I keep thinking he's not going to choose me. And I'm going to look like the dumbass.
Last huge argument, he said to give him one last chance; and that if he fucked that one up, he didn't deserve me. So.......I don't know what to do.
The Only Thing- Stabbing Westward
pretty much sums it up. Love the song. Love the band. Hate how much it's true right now.
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candycrimson:
Heat storms are amazing. We don't see many of those on the east coast. I'm excited to get back to the midwest next week! I used to be obsessed with Jamba, but now I make my own at home most of the time, and some of them are even better. Mmmm. Sorry about your guy!
deceptiviewfilm:
your BF, give him time, but dont let him walk over you