This is not about food. I just use it to relate, analogies. Truly how I express myself - with food Haha
More self evaluation and growth awareness talk.
For years, in past relationships, I love hard. When we connect on more than one level, I have a hard time letting go and/or saying no.. when the relationship has ended. Or simply just standing up for myself. Justifying things when they really weren't ok. I've become accustom to it. Receiving the bare minimum in return is what I'm speaking of.
I have let things continue to point where (I talked about this before) have gone abstinent. Now this is for other people to no longer use me a their sex toy. I will admit, I love being a sex toy. However! I also want the friendship & general treatment as a person you know. I am not just your dildo. I call this getting breadcrumbs. I deserve the whole fucking loaf.
I've done some things, that as I look back ... it's depressing. I'm not in a relationship, so I don't have anyone to lie to. But I've assisted in men cheating on girlfriend and even their wife. Who does that? As a woman, I need to support my fellow woman and not allow that. Regardless of my connection sexually with the gentleman. If he's any kind of man worth my time, then give me the whole loaf. I'm worth it.
Ok ok I got it off my chest. I love you all. Thank you for giving me a place that gives me support. đź’š @lyxzen @rambo @missy @kiley
