I have always had the sight my mother called it. The ability to see and sense more. Energy, Auras... whatever you wan to call it. Not only in people but the places I go. I have been able to experience someone else's pain, happiness, love, anger.. from a touch long enough. I have always been able to see the potential of person. This here is my biggest flaw. I have now too often fallen in love with the potential of someone, rather than the person they choose to be. Too often have I been able to separate from the actions of a person and who they could be verses the person they currently are.
I have always been gifted. Prophylactic dreams, the connection with mother earth, animals.. I've never really understood it completely. It is something I've had my entire life. My mother said it was because I am an open soul. She too has similar talents, not near as refined as mine. I have always said to believe in the Wiccan way because it made sense to me. The things I experience with people... Is this why I seclude myself so much? I hate that I am so alone. I keep allowing these alluring negative people around me because I feel like I can help them. I know better too.
I allow myself to be treated in such a manner and I honestly don't understand it. then when I feel like this, I sexually compensate. Is that all I am to some people? That's not love. I don't even know if I've ever really been loved completely. I guess I really need to look into myself and fix it because I am so tired of ending up without a clue to whom that woman is in the mirror.
