I have been going through some changes in my life. Sorting out people that aren't genuine, fixing myself in the process. Becoming more in touch with the woman that is inside of me. For the past 11 years I have been focused on being one person; mom. Now that I have moved out to the Bay I have been able to really get in touch with myself. I spent my first summer, not scrambling for work or moving, away from my kids to really look into myself. What did I discover? Well I'm still in the process of really unraveling all that to be honest. I have become more focused on things that attract me to people, genuine interests, real conversations, no longer focusing on a sexual attraction alone. I feel finally I am no longer driven by my vagina. LOL. I got to do a beautiful, stripped down photoshoot with my girl @sunshine called "Natural Beauty" in the ever so beautiful Santa Cruz. It really felt like women supporting women, being ourselves in our own raw selves. She really captured that for me in this shoot; which will be out for all your enjoyment in 2 months :) be sure to watch for it. I have had an amazing time embracing that raw self; being brutally honest with myself and others in the process. I apologize to all my followers I haven't been very active on the site. Because I am sorting through all my emotional demons, sometimes the feelings can be overwhelming. Grief, disappointment, rejection, etc... going through all my feelings to really find a peaceful balance in myself. I'm inspired by strength of the battles others overcome on a daily basis like @stormyent. I also want to express my gratification for my friends @dk @cigno @lexirae @merryboudoir who came to my birthday party and really was there for me. I really appreciate their friendship and support.
I love my little suicidegirls family. Thank you everyone for being here for me during my time of self reflection! <3
