I am a big guy, I have always been a big guy. I have broad shoulders and even when I am in great shape I am larger than your average man. I am in great shape at 6'1 about 220 pounds, I am a long way away from 220 pounds. Life has taken my focus in other directions and I find myself to no longer just be a big guy like I always have been, but now I find myself being a fat guy. It has effected the way I look at myself the way I feel about myself or carry myself. It has effected my confidence and it has caused me to avoid many social situations (not that I was ever very comfortable in social situations to begin with but now i just avoid them completely). The problem is once this begins to happen it becomes a "snowball effect" because I am embarrassed about the way I look at the moment I dont leave my house much, this causes more weight gain and makes me feel even worse about me. I am not making any excuses it is entirely my fault based on decisions I have made and the consequences are mine to deal with. Life has gotten in the way some but it always does and I should have adjust and adapted to that but I didnt. So today it was time, I got tired of not liking me. I got tired of sitting in my house not doing things, I got tired of being alone and I got tired of not looking in a mirror and being happy about what I have seen. I have a friend who is a trainer and I made a deal with him. Today I paid him for a year in advance, to not let me make excuses, to not let me hide anymore and today he came to my house as per our deal and he drug my ass out to the gym. It was a slow start but it was a start, I am sore and I am tired but I am happy. Tonight he will come back and drag me out for my 2nd workout of the day at the pool. and for the next couple months I will do 2 a days mornings at the gym and evenings at the pool. I hope that this will have the effects I am hoping for and I hope I can post pictures on here showing my progress but at the very least I will do this.......Today is Wednesday June 4th 2014 I weigh 385 poounds (god it hurt to type that here, I am so embarrassed) and I will announce as often as I can remember (hopefully monthly) my weight and progress. And I will ask anyone reading this to please please please if you dont see me post my weight if you dont see me update this call me out on it say something, ask me what I weigh. I hope that by my birthday november 16th that is 6 months and 10 days from now my update says "Today is November 16th 2014 and I am happy to say I weigh 260 pounds." that is 20 pounds per month a very reasonable goal, I am keeping my fingers crossed for a light and happy birthday this year but I will take all the motivation I can get!! Thank you guys for listening again and wish me luck =)
