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i feel like for a moment today i came to a closer realization of what i want to do with my life. its still a completely fuzzy idea. i guess mostly it involves a change in motivation.

something to think on.

i find that life can be quite meaningless if you arn't building something positive. that thing can be many things. it can be something small or big. but there's gotta be something. it could be what you do from 9-5, or it could be what you build when you're with family and friends.

i need to build. i have a sort of vauge idea of how i should focus that. it may or may not have anything to do with the skills i have, or think i have, or am used to using. it may, it may not.

every day has the potential to be a beautiful day, if you let it be. even the worst one.

Romanticism An artistic and intellectual movement originating in Europe in the late 18th century and characterized by a heightened interest in nature, emphasis on the individual's expression of emotion and imagination, departure from the attitudes and forms of classicism, and rebellion against established social rules and conventions.

my life has often been guided by huge swings in romanticism and cynicsm. maybe it breaks down something like this:

0-6 romantic
7-9 cynic
10-14 romantic
15-19 cynic
20-24 romantic
25-27 cynic

and then huge swings month by month. but i feel like i'm in a new area lately, or maybe one i havn't been in in years, but with experience to handle it better. maybe i'm finding a balance.

i'm gonna take a nap. perhaps none of this will even be valid by the time i wake up.



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