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so my mom called tonight and the subtext of the conversation was she might have to quit work because she has severe knee pain from arthritis and being old and what have you. i feel horrible for her.

my dad's already out of commission, with no kidneys, no colon, emphysema, a fucked up back and he recently broke his arm. good times.

so i feel guilty that i cant help them. that on top of the whole brickinthebrain feeling you get when you come face to face with the concept of mortality.

uhg.

i'm not even that close to them, which is another story. but i dont know if that's affecting how i feel about it for better, or worse...

fuck.

i live near a bar with an outdoor area, and tonight i've been hearing intermittant (sp) outbursts of loud cheering and clapping. its really freaking annoying. i think they must be watching the girls basketball game.

damn lesbians. (i kid the lesbians)