WOOHOO!
I got out THREE TIMES in the last week. Twice with my guy no less. WOW. I am impressed.
Twice to see movies - one romantic comedy thing that my guy said we were "supposed to see", and ended up being all about marriage...damn you, universe. I know we were supposed to see it too, because it had a container of baked ziti in...
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I got out THREE TIMES in the last week. Twice with my guy no less. WOW. I am impressed.
Twice to see movies - one romantic comedy thing that my guy said we were "supposed to see", and ended up being all about marriage...damn you, universe. I know we were supposed to see it too, because it had a container of baked ziti in...
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I feel like my soul is set on "atrophy".
Work is killing me. Too much. Too much stress. Too much BS. Too many Russian programmers who fuck up on too many projects.
I never get out. NEVER. I mean it. I would love to get coffee or see a movie or get taken out to dinner or go to a club with the gals. Nope....
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Work is killing me. Too much. Too much stress. Too much BS. Too many Russian programmers who fuck up on too many projects.
I never get out. NEVER. I mean it. I would love to get coffee or see a movie or get taken out to dinner or go to a club with the gals. Nope....
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alkatraz:
Congrats on the photo shoot!! they should thank you instead of you thanking them, your gorgeous! 
linklog84767:
Answer of the day:
I dated a girl from Athens, GA who woke me up with a blowjob in the middle of the night the first time we slept together. I normally don't get off from head but sometimes I do-- especially when she "asks for it".
Thats awesome about the photoshoot. I'm sure more goodness will follow.
I dated a girl from Athens, GA who woke me up with a blowjob in the middle of the night the first time we slept together. I normally don't get off from head but sometimes I do-- especially when she "asks for it".
Thats awesome about the photoshoot. I'm sure more goodness will follow.
Things have been great.
I have been busy with work. Really busy.
Saturday my guy's other band had a show. It blew so bad. The sound guy was a fucking dolt. I could have done better blindfolded and armless. The vocalist actually walked off the stage during the show and refused to go on.
However, the funny part of the night was a friend of...
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I have been busy with work. Really busy.
Saturday my guy's other band had a show. It blew so bad. The sound guy was a fucking dolt. I could have done better blindfolded and armless. The vocalist actually walked off the stage during the show and refused to go on.
However, the funny part of the night was a friend of...
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corvinus:
I'm going grey for a bit...lots of work I need to get done. You were my first SG friend.
Adios
Adios
worlds:
I'm glad things are going well. It's always funny to see people like that go crazy.
Heya!
Things are much better...I am finally coming out of the dark hole in a consistent fashion. It is a good thing. Today has been great.
I feel like I am sorta selling my soul to work...however, I am working on things being a bit more balanced.
My guy and I had this wonderfully long conversation last night about intelligence v. surrender and spiritual awakening....
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Things are much better...I am finally coming out of the dark hole in a consistent fashion. It is a good thing. Today has been great.
I feel like I am sorta selling my soul to work...however, I am working on things being a bit more balanced.
My guy and I had this wonderfully long conversation last night about intelligence v. surrender and spiritual awakening....
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devil_bitch:
I am only kidding myself. I can't give up boys at all. I just need to be more selective. I hope things work with you and A. 
elektra_descends:
Glad to hear things are coming around for you.
You are certainly more patient than I am.
I have no idea when we all are going to hang out.
Things have not come aroung for me. I am still waiting for anything to be addressed. And when I say anything, I mean anything. Pretty fucked up! So Maybe we'll get lucky and I can break out for a night like I did a few months ago.
You are certainly more patient than I am.
I have no idea when we all are going to hang out.
Things have not come aroung for me. I am still waiting for anything to be addressed. And when I say anything, I mean anything. Pretty fucked up! So Maybe we'll get lucky and I can break out for a night like I did a few months ago.
Wow, I just wrote this huge journal entry, and then screwed the pooch and erased it. D'oh! So here we go again. One more time for the retards in the back.
Anyways...things are better. I am really confused though. Why do they keep getting to this point? Why do I feel like in the grand scheme of things, there is a subconscious game of "I've...
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Anyways...things are better. I am really confused though. Why do they keep getting to this point? Why do I feel like in the grand scheme of things, there is a subconscious game of "I've...
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miss_lady:
and oh yeah---The Daily Show rocks!
0theamazingrando:
I totally understand.. well.. at least the "pfffft" part...
Well, things were better and as is so prevalent in my life, they got worse. I made the mistake of sharing my feelings on the subject of personal growth and focus, life immersion, etc. last night (as is so much more likely when my meds have not 100% kicked in) and I not only got shot down, I got accused of being crazy, I got...
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alivewocause:
Why do people do it to themselves.... because they no no better than to... the thing is that you have to realize that you can do better and all it takes is a little will... and the finger, cause the finger says it all.... but it is up to you to go for it first... peace and hope all get better
Alive
Alive
ladyexxa:
oh, my dear....
nothing ever makes sense, thats the point of the game of life. we are dealt our challenges only because we are strong enough to handle them. i wish it could be kittens and candycanes all the time...but it can't, and that's why we have to take a step back and look objectively at our situations...i'm dead sure you have a zillion others in your life that can help you...you have me too, we've never even met. others shortcomings aren't your problem. it's only you that matters. you're not crazy.
peace be with you,
vanexxa
nothing ever makes sense, thats the point of the game of life. we are dealt our challenges only because we are strong enough to handle them. i wish it could be kittens and candycanes all the time...but it can't, and that's why we have to take a step back and look objectively at our situations...i'm dead sure you have a zillion others in your life that can help you...you have me too, we've never even met. others shortcomings aren't your problem. it's only you that matters. you're not crazy.
peace be with you,
vanexxa
Okay...my lovely man got in this contract in secrecy and I had the most beautiful Christmas in my life. I got my medication too...I feel so many worlds better than ever.
I got the kickinest coffee maker ever. It grinds the beans, then puts them in the gold filter, where water filtered by the machine goes through and makes me Starbucks coffee every morning. Oh...
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I got the kickinest coffee maker ever. It grinds the beans, then puts them in the gold filter, where water filtered by the machine goes through and makes me Starbucks coffee every morning. Oh...
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candy:
haha.. well atleast you know he had a good time
christinarenee:
I love that pic of you on your profile... 
Inzaine and I are going to be coming to florida for a couple days in Feb-Mar time.... well so much for having my natural hair color anymore... heh... that trend lasted longer than I thought... It stayed blonde for a really long time... lil more than a year.... but check the new profile pic.... 
...anyhow glad to hear things are going well for you 
Inzaine and I are going to be coming to florida for a couple days in Feb-Mar time.... well so much for having my natural hair color anymore... heh... that trend lasted longer than I thought... It stayed blonde for a really long time... lil more than a year.... but check the new profile pic.... ...anyhow glad to hear things are going well for you Hello all.
This will probably be pretty short, as there is nothing really to say. I am not feeling too well, due to lack of fundage which means lack of certain things that I need to keep me feeling well. We're not talking the monthly shoe-shopping trip either, I am talking about prescription meds. So I am not really in that talkative of a mood....
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This will probably be pretty short, as there is nothing really to say. I am not feeling too well, due to lack of fundage which means lack of certain things that I need to keep me feeling well. We're not talking the monthly shoe-shopping trip either, I am talking about prescription meds. So I am not really in that talkative of a mood....
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devil_bitch:
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year darling!!! I hope that you had warm fuzzy fun the entire holiday season and Santa bought you lots of goodies!!
miss_lady:
Happy New Year!
So, I am now officially a contractor. I am working with my guy - he is now doing sales and tech shit for the web clients, and I am doing management and programmer management. for Ukrainian programmers. Oh my. Dude, I have to talk to these guys like they are 10 year olds because their english is not that great. It is hard. I actually...
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miss_lady:
Hey girl. Sorry you couldn't meet up. Elektra and I had a great time. Same ol' IB, some things here never change, kinda reassuring. We'll have to go again when G-money is here.
linklog84767:
Hey congrats on the contractor status! It reads like you are on the up and up and shit. GREAT!
I hope you have a fucking great New Years and 2005 treats you like you deserve to be treated!
I hope you have a fucking great New Years and 2005 treats you like you deserve to be treated!
So, I am now officially a contractor. I am working with my guy - he is now doing sales and tech shit for the web clients, and I am doing management and programmer management. for Ukrainian programmers. Oh my. Dude, I have to talk to these guys like they are 10 year olds because their english is not that great. It is hard. I actually...
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I have loved Manson since the first time him on an episode of Jerry Springer back in 1990 1991. Back before Jerry really moved to smut he had Oprah Shows ok. The topic was teenage club kids and they were talking about ravers and goth kids. Manson blew me away with how hot he was first. No contacts, no heavy make up. Just tall, pale white skin, thin body, the long blackest of black hair, and black eyeliner. How God intended every beautiful gothic man to look. Before all the craziness. He starting speaking and I was blown away. He was so smooth, articulated, and intelligent. I love that. Then time went by and he did slowly become extreme for the shock value and the ticket and record sales. Marketing. There are some things that just bother me and I have always wondered what was it really like. What if he is a total jackass. Some screwed up junkie. I always believed that persona was always not real. Just an Act. I think he slipped a little too far down into the persona. Anyway it has always been the music that kept me there. I saw MM live for the first time in 1994 on the Downward Spiral Tour. They blew me away. I had no idea who they where at the time. Later it clicked that I had seen them on Spriger a few years before.
And how much I want to do dirty things to him...
sorry this is so damn long
[Edited on Feb 10, 2005 12:26PM]