contradiction

I am probably going to LA again in the middle of April. I am looking forward to getting my hair done again. It is starting to look funkdafied. I am thinking red and purple dreads with the black. I like red and purple. I like blue, but pretty sure it would clash with my eyes.

After that, I may be going to Germany. My guy has a festival (huge) show that his other band is doing, they are about to buy plane tickets. He really wants me to go with. Strange - most guys would want their girls to stay home, so they could party hearty without the strings attached. I told him even if I can't go, that he should. He was thinking about backing out. He wants to do this so bad, how could I support him backing out? This will be a great experience for him, although I will never get used to being nothing more than the "guitarist's girlfriend". I want to get out there again. The whole gilded cage gig is not for me.

Speaking of which, I am considering putting out an EP titled "Inside This Gilded Cage" to tide people over until "Farewell to Perfection" comes out. I have enough stuff done, wouldn't take shit, except money. Which of course Ido not have. Heh. Would anybody buy? Dunno. Do I care if they do? Dunno. Need to get another website together.

Oh yeah, once again my guy completely confounds me on the commitment thing. Welcome to the Maelstrom. Heh.

My thought for the day: Beautiful confusion - my life on this earth.

My listening pleasure: The Sad List. "Gas Head Goes West" --Live

Wearing: black jogging pants, ls black shirt, glasses, and makeup. WOOHOO.

What I am avoiding to bring you this update: Nothing really. Work is slow today.