Well everyone, I am coming home tomorrow.
The end results of this trip have been many. But I think there are more questions, as many more questions as there are answers.
I am no longer at an impass with ex bf. I have truly seen for myself that he is not a healthy enough individual for me to even consider involvement with. He is still absolutely gorgeous, affectionate, and even spends a good bit of time reminiscing about our past, but he also has a lot of his old habits. You know, such as multiple personality disorder (haha), running off to be with his new girlfriend, lying to everyone about me being here so that they will not get nervous/upset. Fuck that. He may never get over it (he is now 30) and I accept that. I feel free.
With the other guy, things are in a very uncomfortable limbo. We have a lot of things in common and I won't even go into all the signs/coincidences that are involved. He told me repeatedly to call him when I left, and now he isn't even messaging me or calling at all. I would normally say he is blowing me off, but it doesn't make any sense - he is not the type to say "call me" and mean "fuck off". So that is all sorts of uncomfortable. I am not sure whether to ride it out or push it - he seems to need a good push sometimes to get to where he needs to be.
Well, I guess I should not worry too much. There is a lot that is about to happen, and it is one of those "hold your breath, here it comes" sort of things....
The end results of this trip have been many. But I think there are more questions, as many more questions as there are answers.
I am no longer at an impass with ex bf. I have truly seen for myself that he is not a healthy enough individual for me to even consider involvement with. He is still absolutely gorgeous, affectionate, and even spends a good bit of time reminiscing about our past, but he also has a lot of his old habits. You know, such as multiple personality disorder (haha), running off to be with his new girlfriend, lying to everyone about me being here so that they will not get nervous/upset. Fuck that. He may never get over it (he is now 30) and I accept that. I feel free.
With the other guy, things are in a very uncomfortable limbo. We have a lot of things in common and I won't even go into all the signs/coincidences that are involved. He told me repeatedly to call him when I left, and now he isn't even messaging me or calling at all. I would normally say he is blowing me off, but it doesn't make any sense - he is not the type to say "call me" and mean "fuck off". So that is all sorts of uncomfortable. I am not sure whether to ride it out or push it - he seems to need a good push sometimes to get to where he needs to be.
Well, I guess I should not worry too much. There is a lot that is about to happen, and it is one of those "hold your breath, here it comes" sort of things....
Are you serious about the tapeworms? How did you get them? and how do you get rid of them when it is time to say 'when'?