Okay, well my life fucking blows, you know that?!?!
I did some more jail time this week, thanks to the State Attny telling me and ex to come to the courthouse to sign declination of charges paperwork at the same time. We did, and they arrest us for violating a court order to stay away from each other. I cussed out the arresting officer. He deserved it. My back hurts. Jail is not comfortable. I am now down 2 more earrings, they wouldn't go back in.
So I am going to CA in 11 days give or take, and I am nervous/excited. With the new guy, on one hand I am really looking forward to having a good time with him, indulging in some substances and working on some shit. On the other hand, he is way hot, presumably way hotter than any guy I should be able to hook up with. HAHA that sounds all junior high school and shit. But he is. And he is incredibly talented and intelligent. I am pretty much a chick that writes halfway-decent tunes, looks decent if I have enough makeup on, and I was told I was really smart and gifted and all that crap, but sometimes I feel like a goddamn bumbling idiot. Especially around people I really think a lot of. And I am not shy at all, which is why the whole thing is ultimately puzzling. He is supposed to be picking me up at the airport. Damn I hope there is a bathroom I can use to put my face on before I get to the gate. Gods I am such a freakin worrier.
So anyways, finally got ahold of ex bf from CA, and he wants to see me. That ought to be interesting. He has said nothing of new whore-girl, or what she thinks of the whole thing. I wonder if she bit the dust after this last round of the "don't call me, don't email me, I can't talk to you" game. Who knows. But he is saying that his life is all screwy and that things have been difficult. But he wants to see me while I am in LA. I will see him, hopefully I will not have to kick him in the nuts. He is another one of those guys that I swore was so far out of my league that it was amazing he ever let me get near him. But not only did he let me get near him, he has refused to stay out of my life for the last 3 years, even though we have not been together. He has never stopped saying he loves me. I think maybe he is thoroughly mental, which would explain how he ended up with me in the first place. Or maybe I caused him to become that way. HAHA. Who knows.
Obviously I am in a bit of a self-loathing bent today. Oh, it wasn't obvious? Just kidding. I think I may need to go out and have a good time, but the people I was supposed to go out with ditched me. Bleck!!!
Whatever. Fuck it. I do not care.
I did some more jail time this week, thanks to the State Attny telling me and ex to come to the courthouse to sign declination of charges paperwork at the same time. We did, and they arrest us for violating a court order to stay away from each other. I cussed out the arresting officer. He deserved it. My back hurts. Jail is not comfortable. I am now down 2 more earrings, they wouldn't go back in.
So I am going to CA in 11 days give or take, and I am nervous/excited. With the new guy, on one hand I am really looking forward to having a good time with him, indulging in some substances and working on some shit. On the other hand, he is way hot, presumably way hotter than any guy I should be able to hook up with. HAHA that sounds all junior high school and shit. But he is. And he is incredibly talented and intelligent. I am pretty much a chick that writes halfway-decent tunes, looks decent if I have enough makeup on, and I was told I was really smart and gifted and all that crap, but sometimes I feel like a goddamn bumbling idiot. Especially around people I really think a lot of. And I am not shy at all, which is why the whole thing is ultimately puzzling. He is supposed to be picking me up at the airport. Damn I hope there is a bathroom I can use to put my face on before I get to the gate. Gods I am such a freakin worrier.
So anyways, finally got ahold of ex bf from CA, and he wants to see me. That ought to be interesting. He has said nothing of new whore-girl, or what she thinks of the whole thing. I wonder if she bit the dust after this last round of the "don't call me, don't email me, I can't talk to you" game. Who knows. But he is saying that his life is all screwy and that things have been difficult. But he wants to see me while I am in LA. I will see him, hopefully I will not have to kick him in the nuts. He is another one of those guys that I swore was so far out of my league that it was amazing he ever let me get near him. But not only did he let me get near him, he has refused to stay out of my life for the last 3 years, even though we have not been together. He has never stopped saying he loves me. I think maybe he is thoroughly mental, which would explain how he ended up with me in the first place. Or maybe I caused him to become that way. HAHA. Who knows.
Obviously I am in a bit of a self-loathing bent today. Oh, it wasn't obvious? Just kidding. I think I may need to go out and have a good time, but the people I was supposed to go out with ditched me. Bleck!!!
Whatever. Fuck it. I do not care.
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