It's funny - I was watching TV at work the other day (uh...did I say that out loud?)...and I saw this commercial. "Do you have anxiety? You could be a part of an investigational medication study." I laughed my ass off and said to myself (out loud - proof that I am crazy) "I am an investigational medication study". I am on so much shit it would make your head spin. Between the head meds and the supplements for my throat, I take at least 10 pills in the morning. *gag* (literally).
I am starting to get annoyed with my job. I really don't like working outside my home office. I am still burnt over getting expunged from my joint business with my fiance' a few months ago. It stings a bit more because my throat is getting fucked by the mold that is in the air system at work. I get paid nothing compared to all the shit I do, and they continue to pile more shit on me.
I guess I am being a bit of a shithead, because many days I get home and I make little stabbing comments about how pissed I am about what happened with the business. I mean, I came up with the idea. Granted, he is great at what he does, and I am not quite as good at it. I didn't have health insurance and I do now. But I didn't have to fear every day that I was going to have a bad day and fuck things up (which I have totally done on a few occasions, and my boss has been pretty cool about it). I didn't have to deal with people every day. I could work on music. I guess I got spoiled and now I am being bratty. But I still feel totally cheated. I guesss underneath it all I was proud that I (we) created a business, and was successful, and I didn't like being forced out. To all of the people that knew me, and figured that I could never have done anything that cool, it proved that they were right. Especially my parents. They figured it was all my fiance's doing, and now they have proof. That sucks.
Hopefully after the album is out...this will all be behind me.
I am starting to get annoyed with my job. I really don't like working outside my home office. I am still burnt over getting expunged from my joint business with my fiance' a few months ago. It stings a bit more because my throat is getting fucked by the mold that is in the air system at work. I get paid nothing compared to all the shit I do, and they continue to pile more shit on me.
I guess I am being a bit of a shithead, because many days I get home and I make little stabbing comments about how pissed I am about what happened with the business. I mean, I came up with the idea. Granted, he is great at what he does, and I am not quite as good at it. I didn't have health insurance and I do now. But I didn't have to fear every day that I was going to have a bad day and fuck things up (which I have totally done on a few occasions, and my boss has been pretty cool about it). I didn't have to deal with people every day. I could work on music. I guess I got spoiled and now I am being bratty. But I still feel totally cheated. I guesss underneath it all I was proud that I (we) created a business, and was successful, and I didn't like being forced out. To all of the people that knew me, and figured that I could never have done anything that cool, it proved that they were right. Especially my parents. They figured it was all my fiance's doing, and now they have proof. That sucks.
Hopefully after the album is out...this will all be behind me.
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devil_bitch:
You are an amazing woman. I look at all the things that you have accomplished from your son, to your music, and your business. All of that takes so much guts and tanacity. If you aren't happy doing your job anymore then try for something else. Life is too short to miserable all of the time. Hugs for you sweetie!!
darkchylde:
rorshack does the ink blots