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Played goal keeper for my soccer team last night. I got violent whenever I got hit from behind. The first guy I told I was gonna kill the next time he did it, the second guy I apparently body slammed and definitely held my fist over his face. The poor guy looked scared to death.

This isn't like me, but I know what's up. Last...
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I went on a team builder with the major telephone company I work for. You know the type, climb a mountain together to build teamwork. Well, we went canoing down the North Saskatchewan. It didn't take us long to realize the current was strong enough that we didn't have to paddle to get there, so it became a floating party. We smoked weed and drank...
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Did yoga in the park today, that was fantastic. Even did a couple short headstands. Haven't done those in a couple years since hurting my back in a horrific yoga accident ('nough said). I didn't even feel the hangover I deserved, must have been the4 fresh air and sunshine. Hopefully I did some damage to my farmer's tan - I must remember to moisturize... I...
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Ah, yoga with my beautiful teacher. We talked about the whole photography thing and what I'll do now, and she suggested I just wait and see what comes to me which is pretty much what I said and I just skipped away because she's so beautiful and confident and poised and I've got a big crush on her. Well, gotta find out if she's single...
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I got my rejection letter from Ryerson school of photography today. Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

Well, I've got to plan my next move. Not sure what that'll be.

When someone pulls the carpet out from under you, you can get up and go forward, go back, go left or go right. Or you can stay right there.

I need to stay here for a bit...
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Can't sleep, can't drink anymore whiskey... What philosophies can I offer at 4:30 in the morning? Be true to yourself. A wise friend told me that when I was fretting over going back to my wife or pushing on ahead. She said, "Dude, you've got to be true to yourself." So when a friend called me two days ago with a similar dilemma, I said...
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Another day home sick; the cold's getting better. Feeling listless, though. Found an old school bike light with a generator that's powered by the front wheel in a junk shop for Anna Nicole. That makes my day. Too bad I sat and watched CSI instead of installing it. No worries, I did take the wobble out of my front wheel; and I'm sick, so I'm...
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Ugh! Home sick and just feeling shitty. I fucked up at work again, and right now my boss is cleaning up my mess. Not good, not the way to do it. The shrink says I have an avoidant personality, yeah he's right on that one. It's a tough thing to have for relationships and jobs. I fight it daily, basically something I don't want to...
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Well, the papers have been served, the divorce is fully in motion. I'm starting to feel better about it, but I still hold an overwhelming feeling of letting my ex-wife down. Well I am letting her down, let's face it, this isn't what she wants. But I'm not happy when I'm with her, how can I do anything else? I have to do this, can...
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What's it all about? One of those days where I'm just tired and feeling wierd, and just a little blue. Hung over, yeah, but more than that. The shrink's still messing with my meds. I hate those things, but if history proves one thing it's that I have sure fucked things up when I wasn't taking them. But then I've fucked things up when I...
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