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Ugh! Home sick and just feeling shitty. I fucked up at work again, and right now my boss is cleaning up my mess. Not good, not the way to do it. The shrink says I have an avoidant personality, yeah he's right on that one. It's a tough thing to have for relationships and jobs. I fight it daily, basically something I don't want to do comes up - call someone with bad news or some mundane job I hate - and my mind goes to anything but doing that thing. I swear I can drift off and bring myself back 10 times in a minute, until I finally force myself to do it. It's exhausting by the end of the day. I can blow off 2 days doing this, and occasionally I just let something go for good, then it comes back and bites me in the ass. Like today...