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Well, the papers have been served, the divorce is fully in motion. I'm starting to feel better about it, but I still hold an overwhelming feeling of letting my ex-wife down. Well I am letting her down, let's face it, this isn't what she wants. But I'm not happy when I'm with her, how can I do anything else? I have to do this, can you imagine a marriage where one person doesn't want to be in it? There's too many of them already. I know I'm doing the right thing, but why does it feel so shitty?