contextual

OK, I'm back. This will have to be quick because my mind will drift onto something else soon. I came to my laptop to search the web for info to figure out how much a professional photo studio costs to set up. Now I'm here and I stoked the hookah and we smoked it downstairs, not in my part of the house because my roommate hates the smell and I drop some of the charcoal on the floor and it burns holes in the carpet because I didn't bring anything to pick it up with if it dropped. And it dropped.

I have a friend in T.O.

OK, well I drifted off a bit there. Probably 10 minutes, but maybe it was 2 because time is moving more slowly for me now. I wanted to work on the dream, get a plan and make it real. Before I make it real I've got to bounce the plan off some friends.

So I've got a good downpayment saved up for a property, right now I'm thinking something close to downtown but cheap. I've got friend's looking in edmonton so I've got to ask them. (I was gone for another 10 minutes in the middle of that last sentence). But I want something big and maybe a converted industrial building, something big inside but maybe ugly outside or not a great neighbourhood. I want an apartment attached to a studio, but seperate entrances. I want to get an apprenticeship from a photographer, in my studio. So I need a photographer that is renting studio space and rent it to him/her cheaper.

Hey what is this contextual's calendar business? Iclicked ion the sysmbol up above under my last calenddar and it brought up this calendar with dates and times. Is this when I've been on this thing? (was gone another 10 minutes in the middle of that) OK, I can't spell anymore.

Oh yeah, your question. I hide parts of myself, I constantly edit how much I'm going to reveal when other people are around. I think working in the office, in a cubicle where I can hear 10 people's conversations and they can here mine and I feel like I have to act a certain way in the office, to belong as a manager. And I'm naturally shy, but I can't be shy in my current job, I have to confront people when they're late with something and get them to do it on time or correct them if they're screwing up and I just want to hide in my cubicle. I want to get away from that, in my space with my rules. That's why I want an apprenticeship in my studio. If I can find the right person, it's part of the dream now.

wonderful dream... try not to put it off for too long... live the dream and you'll be much happier.

are we off to a good year so far?