contessla

I never expected to love someone so much without knowing them for a long time...But becoming a Mama makes me realize that this sort of love is true and unconditional. It's amazing that I can miss her so much it hurts, even when she is just a room away. The fact that I am prepared to die for this little girl, no matter how painful...
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i'm losing my god damn mind. i'm having what you would call, a stalled labor. if my baby girl isn't here by july 21st, i am going to be induced. i've tried everything now to get her out and she just isn't budging. or maybe it's my cervix that isn't budging. that's right, i'm stuck at a wonderful 3 cm. but i'm almost fully effaced....
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6.27.2008 Update
I'm now 3 cm dilated and 50% effaced. My midwife thinks my little girl will be here within the next week or so. I've been walking a lot...I guess it's working.


i'm going on a SG hiatus.
the next time you will hear from me will be after my baby is born.

shouldn't be too much longer now.

love contessla.

what's worse than being 9 months pregnant in this summertime heat?

being 9 months pregnant in this summertime heat and breaking the metatarsals in your foot.

that's right, i have managed to break my foot.

oh how mortifying it's going to be to give birth with my casted foot trying to fit into a stirrup.

Ohhhhkayyyyy.

I'm officially 36 weeks.

Nervous as fuck.

I think it's probably because I watch too much of those birth shows on TLC. For the last 9 months I have been telling myself I'm going to do this natural meaning no pain medications at all. I thought that I could overcome the pain by deep breathing and remaining calm. I'm now starting to believe that...
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Did any of you happen to take a look at NicoleLee's newest set "Why So Serious?"

I'm telling you, it's the hottest set I've seen.
Maybe it's because I have a fetish for dirty things...
But damn...I said God Damn.

See it here::

NicoleLee - Why So Serious?

Went & watched "The Happening" today.
Pretty good flick.
Not too unrealistic of a plot, which made it a hundred times scarier.
Plus, Mark Wahlberg is hot.
It's too bad he didn't hook back up with New Kids On The Block for their new cd, lmao.

ps - Does anyone have an explaination as to why Ashlee Simpson's song "Outta My Head" is so fucking...
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fuuuuccckkkk...
the baby did a flip and is now breech.
holy shit, if i go into labor i'm screwed.
i refuse to have a c-section.

i'm going to try brisk walking and swimming to get her to flip back upside down.

ps - my midwife measured her today. she will officially weigh over 8 lbs. at birth.

We had a 4.0 earthquake in my town last night.
It scared the shit out of me.
I've been in tons of them before...
But never while I was in a second floor apartment.

I didn't think a pregnant woman could run as fast as I did last night.

Does anyone have any suggestions on how to help me self induce my own labor? I'm on bedrest now, and I'm in a lot of pain. But my Midwife won't induce me until I'm 40 weeks. I'm 34 weeks now and my little girl is over 5 pounds! I've tried sex, masturbation, nipple stimulation, raspberry tea, walking, heavy lifting...I'm running out of options...Please help...