contagion

Well my "brief" trip to g'ville (gainsville) last night was cool and sort of what I needed. I find that there's nothing more relaxing then sitting and listening to music through a long drive. I almost look forward to it. I was able to meet up with some of my friends Jon and AG, from high school. They both live together in a nice little house. The house itself looks somewhat old and beat up from the outside, but the inside looks nice and homey. AG's room is the way I pictured it. A nice glass desk covered with old photos for her computer and Audrey Hepburn posters all over the place. She is somewhat obessesed with her. Jon's room is very much the opposite. No posters on the wall and no order whatsoever. He has one large bookshelf and boxes full of records. Books to read and records to listen to, need I say more. So after a brief visit, and jam session on some misfits covers with jon on drums and me on bass, I headed home. I got lost on the way back for about 20 minutes. I figured I was concentrating too much on Mick Thompson's guitar tone and soloing skills to notice that I had missed my exit. Now the apartment is empty except for myself and my guitar noise. I'm starting to believe some of the expectations some people made about me living alone. Some said that I would enjoy it and get along fine, yet others said that I would just get really lonely. Being a twin plays a big role in this. I watched a True Life on MTV (dont know why I was watching MTV to begin with because they never play videos I want to see and it sucks overall) about twins and what happens when they seperate. Long story short a set of twins seperates for college and they both end up going to different schools. Well after a semester one of the brothers gets too lonely, or brother sick, and decides to move back in with his twin brother. I dont see myself deciding to quit on my music program here in Orlando, and I dont see my brother wanting to move back to Orlando just to feel comfortable, or something of that nature. It just made me realize how much I take being a twin for granted. I guess I never really thought of my brother as a friend till we actually started hanging out in high school. Typical Friday nights drinking good old Coors Light and smoking some grass, actually I dont smoke and the few times I have bad things seem to always happen, so I pretty much pass on grass. He's pretty much been by my side for the last 21 years of life. So me being all by myself in a few weeks, scary to actually say it for the first time, is going to be very challenging. I've dealt with lonliness before, but on other levels and for different reasons. This is something that was meant to eventually happen and now that the time is almost apon me its sort of hard to swallow. But I'm just gonna do what I always do. Take it in strides and roll with the punches.
There are a few good things that will come from this I'm sure. A- I'll finally feel like I have grown my own identity. People wont know I'm a twin so there will be no comparing the "like's" and "dislike's" B-I'll probably give up drinking. I wont have a drinking partner, and drinking alone can be somewhat hazardous to my mental well being.

Well this is probably going to be my last entry for a while. I knew that my stay on this site was going to be short lived. I'm going to be heading home soon and probably wont have a chance to update as much as I have been. But hopefully I will be back once I get back to Orlando.
I just want to thank all the people who stopped by and said whats to me and welcomed me to the site. I appreciate it.
And especially to fatality, she has been super cool to me. Check her out because in my opinion she one of the best ladies on this site. She kills em all, literally.

Anyways thanks again. It's last call.

P.S check these out

MetallicA "Master of Puppets"
Slipknot "Vol.3 The subliminal verses"
Bright Eyes "Fever and Mirrors"
Frederic Chopin "The Nocturnes"

"I stood dropping a coin to the pit of a well and I would throw my whole billfold if I thought it would help"

~ Contagion