Been really depressed lately. A lot of stuff has happen. My health is getting bad; I am finding it hard again to be happy. The problem I am having on going is that I feel like I am not attractive at all. I just see my imperfections and compare myself to others. Most of the times I like pictures that are blurry of me, because I think I look normal. When people (besides my lover) take pictures of me, I want to turn away. The only time I enjoyed getting my pictures done was when I was in high school in my commercial photography class. Recently(on my blog) I put pictures up and nobody even commented on them and it made me feel like I really was not pretty AND so when my lover says I look pretty or I am beautiful I feel like Im not, because nobody says I am pretty. To prove my point about my low self-esteem; I have been hit on maybe twice in my life. (By hit on I mean they asked for my number or actually said I look very attractive and this is done by a complete stranger). I do try really hard to look nice, but it does not seem to work. 
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Even supermodels feel self-conscious at times. It's part of being human, and particularly being a woman. No matter what our size, shape, skin, hair, etc., we're never going to be satisfied with how we look, and in fact, society encourages that thinking. The important thing is to recognize that yes, we are beautiful. Even when we're having a rough day. Even when we're in sweatpants. Even when we've just rolled out of bed in the morning after staying up until the wee hours with a stomach virus. We're inherently beautiful. As is. And the pressure we feel is self-inflicted, unnecessary, and silly. We'll feel it anyway, but it helps to remember that.
Keep your chin up, okay? I know you're going through rough times, and that's okay. You'll get through it. (Oh, and as a mental health worker of sorts, I'm obligated to say...don't be stubborn! Take your meds! That's what they're for! It's okay to have them, it's okay to need them, and if taking them means getting back to your own sense of normal, they're worth it.)