conscientia

Why do men seem to find it nearly impossible to be faithful to one woman? When I am in a committed relationship I give my significant other my undivided attention, to the point where any other person just seems to fade into the background. I consider myself to be a pretty badass girlfriend, I chill, smoke, drink, I'm not overly affectionate or clingy, I enjoy time to myself, as well as time with my dude, I keep my hands, and eyes to myself, and I try my personal best to communicate effectively instead of screaming and bitching. Granted, I am incredibly sarcastic, I only become a bitch when given a reason to do so. I've seen so many other badass girls go through this as well, it seems as if no matter how down to earth, or chilled out a girl is men find a reason to cheat. Why? I just don't understand, I've never even been tempted to touch another person while in a relationship, it's not in my character, nor do I have the conscience to hide such a horrible secret.
Some might assume that the sex might not be fulfilling, but that can't be the case for my situation, I was the kinky one. I'm the one that taught him what the fuck to do, so why did I get fucked over? The first year was fuckin' golden! I was the only girl he would even look at, and then after year two things were still great, until the move. I was only 3 hours away! He found time to travel around the state to play shows but couldn't seem to make the time to visit me more than twice in one month. Money expenses? No, he made more than I did, yet I found myself traveling to stay with him. He just acted like a selfish pig. Soon after finding out he's out of his mind, throwing himself around the apartment, crying to his friends, and calling me 90 times from a blocked number. WHY?! Why cheat?! Why lie?! It only fucks you over in the end. It only causes harm, all for a one night stand that was awkward and unsatisfactory. It's just perplexing to me... What drives someone to inflict that kind of pain?