Whooooooooooo hooooooooooooooooooo! I am now street legal, fuckin A!
Kay, so, because of my extraordinarily tight finances since the summer, I haven't had car insurance. I know, not too bright, but I just plain couldn't afford to spare a down payment. And I procrastinate like crazy, so that didn't help matters, either.
But I made it my day off goal, today, to fix this. Phoned a local co I'd heard was dirt cheap, talked to the friendliest, most helpful agent I've ever dealt with, and got a steal of a rate. Good God, does it feel good to no longer have to look over my shoulder in fear when I drive.
I'm slowly starting to reorganize, got myself knocked off track for the umpteenth time and have been feeling very low about it. I've put off dozens of "little" things, the simplest of projects, even. Yet again, it's a brand new day for me. It will take some time to get back where I want to be, but I'm proud of myself for at least making a start.
I'm also back where I was a year ago, wanting to see what life brings me as my own person. I've let myself be defined by my relationship for entirely too long. He's done no wrong, my Greek man is wonderful, and holds such a large piece of my heart. But the fact that there remains doubt in me about moving forward and starting a future together is not good for either of us. I need to set him free, get to know myself a little better, clear my head.
Again, this will be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. It will crush him, and I'm still wondering how on Earth I'm going to do this. He will forever be one of the best friends I've ever had and my first true love, but it just doesn't feel right. Hasn't in a very long time, I've just been fooling myself. I think we both have.
I won't do it now, can't do it now, he's not ready to hear it. Soon, yes, but during the holidays is just plain cruel. I owe him more than that.
So, I've made a commitment to myself to take better care of me. I've been hermitting away, ignoring the world at large and watching time pass will very little accomplishment. No me gusta & no fucking more, I tell you.
PS - Christmas cards go out this coming Monday, you want, gimme addy. ♥
Smooch
Kay, so, because of my extraordinarily tight finances since the summer, I haven't had car insurance. I know, not too bright, but I just plain couldn't afford to spare a down payment. And I procrastinate like crazy, so that didn't help matters, either.
But I made it my day off goal, today, to fix this. Phoned a local co I'd heard was dirt cheap, talked to the friendliest, most helpful agent I've ever dealt with, and got a steal of a rate. Good God, does it feel good to no longer have to look over my shoulder in fear when I drive.
I'm slowly starting to reorganize, got myself knocked off track for the umpteenth time and have been feeling very low about it. I've put off dozens of "little" things, the simplest of projects, even. Yet again, it's a brand new day for me. It will take some time to get back where I want to be, but I'm proud of myself for at least making a start.
I'm also back where I was a year ago, wanting to see what life brings me as my own person. I've let myself be defined by my relationship for entirely too long. He's done no wrong, my Greek man is wonderful, and holds such a large piece of my heart. But the fact that there remains doubt in me about moving forward and starting a future together is not good for either of us. I need to set him free, get to know myself a little better, clear my head.
Again, this will be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. It will crush him, and I'm still wondering how on Earth I'm going to do this. He will forever be one of the best friends I've ever had and my first true love, but it just doesn't feel right. Hasn't in a very long time, I've just been fooling myself. I think we both have.
I won't do it now, can't do it now, he's not ready to hear it. Soon, yes, but during the holidays is just plain cruel. I owe him more than that.
So, I've made a commitment to myself to take better care of me. I've been hermitting away, ignoring the world at large and watching time pass will very little accomplishment. No me gusta & no fucking more, I tell you.
PS - Christmas cards go out this coming Monday, you want, gimme addy. ♥
Smooch
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Know what you mean about holiday break ups. There's time to talk after whne you can talk freely and without so much guilt.