connielingus

I really try my best to stay upbeat and positive, but I feel ten kinds of ick today. I keep crying over nothing, srsly NOTHING.

And seeing as I've alienated myself from just about everyone in my life, this is the only place I can use for a shoulder. That sucks, I really hate it when people get all emo and "woe is me".

I think I'm getting down cause I've just about hit rock bottom, money wise. In a few hours, I'll be taking a large chunk of my music and movie collection to sell for extra cash. Materialism is not my bag, but it still smarts when you give up something you treasure for next to nothing.

Can't blame anybody but myself for this bullshit. You would think I'd have learned my lesson by now. Fucking shit.

EDIT: Sun. 11 am:

Do you guys know how very much I love you all? Do ya? DO ya? I am so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life.

I'm feeling a good deal better, today, and things are looking up. A few unbelieveable things happened to me, last night, that made my head become clearer. All I can say is my heart is soaring, I feel loved, grateful and humbled.

There are two very special people who had a large hand in drying my tears. I'll just call them my Kindred Spirit and my Guardian Angel. You know who you are. I only pray I can have such a wonderful affect on both YOUR worlds.

First day of training for the new gig, tomorrow. It's a whole new direction, and I'm nervous as always (believe it or not, I'm pretty damn shy IRL), but excited to turn things around. Wish me luck.

Smoochies