Boredum by the Buzzcocks, personal theme song of the moment. I am beyond bored.
Why? Yooou got it, I quit the third (count em) third job in what, six months? It's whatever, I just need to stay out of restaurants when looking for employment. I got in a tiff with a cook for making a mistake, nothing major, ONE fucking mistake in the three weeks I worked there. Needless to say, I was not pleased when he began to scream, and screamed right back. I finished up my tables, bid farewell to the owner (nicely), and was on my way.
I don't like dealing with conflict if I don't have to. And I didn't HAVE to take the shit that dude was dishing out, and the $$ I was making wasn't worth the strife.
So I start my cubicle position on Monday, and have vowed to stick with it. Maybe this is what will save me from diner hag hell, please let it be.
I DO still have to find something profitable to do and soon. I'm about to start selling personal belongings to pay my car payment, next week. Might have to spare portions of the ole DVD collection. I gotta do what I gotta do to survive.
At least my Greek boy FINALLY has internet. We've spent hours upon hours IMing the past two days, sending each other new music, searching for places we're going to visit when I get there, drooling over gorgeous Athenian hotels to stay at when I visit in January, goo-gooing at each other. I needed that. We talk every day on the phone, but it's always hurried, trying to get everything we need to tell the other one in before the phone bill sky rockets. So having a little leisure time together was quite enjoyable. He really is all I've got keeping me going. He's all I want, anyway. He gets me, plain & simple.
I miss my friends like CRAZY, miss getting out of the house, miss having someone to talk to face to face that's not blood related. But I have to keep reminding myself to stay away, it's just better for me. They know if they need me I'm here, but I keep myself at an extreme distance. Hermit-girl FTW!
I DO need to stop allowing mediocrity to control the majority of my time. Makes you feel worthless, and is not in contingence with my "ultimate goal". I've kinda just been passing the time, doing next to nothing. Not very healthy, if I do say so myself.
Everything I SHOULD be doing is pretty damn easy. My to do list needs taking care of pronto. I need to lay off the SG a lil, I get lost for too many hours. Tomorrow is a new day, let's see if I can't accomplish a thing or two.
Smooch
Why? Yooou got it, I quit the third (count em) third job in what, six months? It's whatever, I just need to stay out of restaurants when looking for employment. I got in a tiff with a cook for making a mistake, nothing major, ONE fucking mistake in the three weeks I worked there. Needless to say, I was not pleased when he began to scream, and screamed right back. I finished up my tables, bid farewell to the owner (nicely), and was on my way.
I don't like dealing with conflict if I don't have to. And I didn't HAVE to take the shit that dude was dishing out, and the $$ I was making wasn't worth the strife.
So I start my cubicle position on Monday, and have vowed to stick with it. Maybe this is what will save me from diner hag hell, please let it be.
I DO still have to find something profitable to do and soon. I'm about to start selling personal belongings to pay my car payment, next week. Might have to spare portions of the ole DVD collection. I gotta do what I gotta do to survive.
At least my Greek boy FINALLY has internet. We've spent hours upon hours IMing the past two days, sending each other new music, searching for places we're going to visit when I get there, drooling over gorgeous Athenian hotels to stay at when I visit in January, goo-gooing at each other. I needed that. We talk every day on the phone, but it's always hurried, trying to get everything we need to tell the other one in before the phone bill sky rockets. So having a little leisure time together was quite enjoyable. He really is all I've got keeping me going. He's all I want, anyway. He gets me, plain & simple.
I miss my friends like CRAZY, miss getting out of the house, miss having someone to talk to face to face that's not blood related. But I have to keep reminding myself to stay away, it's just better for me. They know if they need me I'm here, but I keep myself at an extreme distance. Hermit-girl FTW!
I DO need to stop allowing mediocrity to control the majority of my time. Makes you feel worthless, and is not in contingence with my "ultimate goal". I've kinda just been passing the time, doing next to nothing. Not very healthy, if I do say so myself.
Everything I SHOULD be doing is pretty damn easy. My to do list needs taking care of pronto. I need to lay off the SG a lil, I get lost for too many hours. Tomorrow is a new day, let's see if I can't accomplish a thing or two.
Smooch
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greaser:
Last night I used Valium, beer, and the Cure (the pre-1985 stuff is best for sleeping to 
). Over the counter sleep aids haven't worked for me in the past, but maybe prescription drugs would work. I'll see how things go tonight. I may have to go to the doctor.
). Over the counter sleep aids haven't worked for me in the past, but maybe prescription drugs would work. I'll see how things go tonight. I may have to go to the doctor.
ninapoe:
Thanx for the comment on my set!