I'm feeling much better. My head is slowly but surely straightening out, my goals seem more attainable than ever.
It's officially been a week since I've smoked teh wacky weed (new world record for yours truly). Originally, it was just a break so I could clean my system and pee pee in a cup for this new job possibility. But, ya know, I've been so much happier & energetic, why go back? The amount and frequency of my smoking was starting to make me useless and hopelessly depressed. No thanks.
It's also been a week since I've spoken to or seen my best friend. I'm distancing myself, she's headed down the path to destruction, and seems all too happy to drag me along with her. She makes no apologies for this and doesn't care to change her ways. I've tried, for her own good, to snap her out of it. But she's a headstrong Leo, like myself, and does what she wants when she wants. Again, no thanks.
Dimo and I had a long talk the other day. He sat down and tried to budget exactly how much $$ we'll need to survive once I join him in Greece. He explained to me that December seems WAY too soon, we both need time to save and get things settled. So, the game plan has been tweaked. I'll still be going in Dec., but just to visit (and get my brains fucked out). I'll return back to the States for a few more months, work and save like a mad woman, and join him for good hopefully in the Spring. If we try and rush this, it could end badly, we want to do it right, this time. I want to spend the rest of my life with this man. If I up and high tail it outta here, who knows what'll happen to us?
It was hard for me to accept, at first, but he's right. He's the more rational one, I tend to be a tad too impulsive, and that gets me in deep, sometimes.
In the meantime, as much as it may hurt, as shitty as it may seem, I need to steer clear of most of the people I call friend. I can't lose sight of what I'm working towards, can't keep getting involved in mindless drama, and need to sober up.
I DO have good influences in my world, most of them are friends I've met through SG. They support me and help keep me grounded. And for this I'm grateful, I don't know what I'd do without some of you. Fer srs.
So the big day is tomorrow. Job interview at Comcast to be a customer service rep. Went out and bought myself a new getup for the occasion, this job is MINE, I tell you. Like I said, I DO have to pass a drug screening first, but I'm confident that'll work out. Ahhhh......cranberry juice and golden seal.
As crazy and confusing as it may be at times, I love my life. So long as I keep striving for what I really want I have a pretty bright furture ahead of me. Just call me the little Greek/American that could.
Wish me luck.
Smooch
It's officially been a week since I've smoked teh wacky weed (new world record for yours truly). Originally, it was just a break so I could clean my system and pee pee in a cup for this new job possibility. But, ya know, I've been so much happier & energetic, why go back? The amount and frequency of my smoking was starting to make me useless and hopelessly depressed. No thanks.
It's also been a week since I've spoken to or seen my best friend. I'm distancing myself, she's headed down the path to destruction, and seems all too happy to drag me along with her. She makes no apologies for this and doesn't care to change her ways. I've tried, for her own good, to snap her out of it. But she's a headstrong Leo, like myself, and does what she wants when she wants. Again, no thanks.
Dimo and I had a long talk the other day. He sat down and tried to budget exactly how much $$ we'll need to survive once I join him in Greece. He explained to me that December seems WAY too soon, we both need time to save and get things settled. So, the game plan has been tweaked. I'll still be going in Dec., but just to visit (and get my brains fucked out). I'll return back to the States for a few more months, work and save like a mad woman, and join him for good hopefully in the Spring. If we try and rush this, it could end badly, we want to do it right, this time. I want to spend the rest of my life with this man. If I up and high tail it outta here, who knows what'll happen to us?
It was hard for me to accept, at first, but he's right. He's the more rational one, I tend to be a tad too impulsive, and that gets me in deep, sometimes.
In the meantime, as much as it may hurt, as shitty as it may seem, I need to steer clear of most of the people I call friend. I can't lose sight of what I'm working towards, can't keep getting involved in mindless drama, and need to sober up.
I DO have good influences in my world, most of them are friends I've met through SG. They support me and help keep me grounded. And for this I'm grateful, I don't know what I'd do without some of you. Fer srs.
So the big day is tomorrow. Job interview at Comcast to be a customer service rep. Went out and bought myself a new getup for the occasion, this job is MINE, I tell you. Like I said, I DO have to pass a drug screening first, but I'm confident that'll work out. Ahhhh......cranberry juice and golden seal.
As crazy and confusing as it may be at times, I love my life. So long as I keep striving for what I really want I have a pretty bright furture ahead of me. Just call me the little Greek/American that could.
Wish me luck.
Smooch
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Thanks a bunch for the words of advice. They worked better than you will ever know.
Stay off the pot. Who wants to be so fucking happy all of the time anyhow?
I'm taking a break from the weekend. My friends and I are going up to Guernville for the Russian River BBQ and Beer fest. I got my tent, my innertube, my empty growlers and my cigars. We decided a weekend off would be a good thing. (Although, she does seem to be coming to her senses. I hope.)
Talk to you later.