Mmmm.....sooo yeah, he's gone. Safe and sound in Athens as he should be.
The insanity ensued this week, so much unecessary drama, so much he said she said, so many tears shed. At least it's over. We ended on the notion that yes, we're still a couple, yes, we both want to work this shit out. We're just both taking a mental health break.
The fact that he slept with someone else and the fact that I KNOW he's not telling me the whole story still urks me. The thought is eating my brain alive, I'm so posessive, not much for sharing what's mine. I'm hoping time will heal this cause what's done is done and there's nothing I can do about it.
I DO feel the need to explore my sexuality still, and because he got his I damn well intend to get mine. I told him this much as well, it's only fair. This time around wasn't about him, and I think this fact drove him nuts to the point that he had to MAKE it about him. So, okay, you wanna play? Like I said, time for me to get mine.
But srsly, it has dawned on me for the umpteenth time that this is the man for me. We fuck each other's heads, we fight like maniacs, and we play games with each other, sometimes. But we get under each other's skin simply BECAUSE we love one another so fucking much. Does that make sense?
When we're happy as a couple, it's the most beautiful thing in the world. We're like children, we're like newlyweds, we're like soul mates. I love this person more than anyone in this entire world, and I'm not quite sure I could ever feel this way again about ANYONE.
We just need to regroup. The time we spent apart under such stressful circumstances drove us both to do some crazy things, and we need to get past all of that in order to survive each other. I KNOW this relationship has a future, I KNOW we were meant for each other. It's all gonna work itself out, I just have to have some paitence.
Other than that not too much to report. My money woes are by far not over with, I'm still fighting my way back. I'm looking into getting a second part time job to make a little extra $$$ cause I'm about to bury myself. I can't even afford to get myself a modem, I've been on a shared computer for weeks now and it's driving me MAD. I have the coolest little chill out computer room in my new place, but I'm rarely in there cause I 've got no internet, yet.
Still settling into the new house, too. We haven't lived together as a family for a very long time, we're all getting used to each other's qwerks and rules. I'm still unpacking, but I'm unpacked enough that I'm comfortable. Those last few boxes are gonna be the hardest to get done, simply because nothing in them is an emergency to unpack.
I kind of put everything on hold in my life while I counted the days til he left. Time to get back to life as I know, time to knuckle down, straighten out the moola situation, finish making my new home my own. I'm gonna do it, just had to get all of the bullshit outta the way, first.
I still miss everybody bunches of tons. I'm trying my best to keep up with everyone on SG, but I share a computer with 4 other people. This makes it very difficult to get a substancial amount of time online. Boo.
Have a terrific weekend, everyone!!
Smooch
The insanity ensued this week, so much unecessary drama, so much he said she said, so many tears shed. At least it's over. We ended on the notion that yes, we're still a couple, yes, we both want to work this shit out. We're just both taking a mental health break.
The fact that he slept with someone else and the fact that I KNOW he's not telling me the whole story still urks me. The thought is eating my brain alive, I'm so posessive, not much for sharing what's mine. I'm hoping time will heal this cause what's done is done and there's nothing I can do about it.
I DO feel the need to explore my sexuality still, and because he got his I damn well intend to get mine. I told him this much as well, it's only fair. This time around wasn't about him, and I think this fact drove him nuts to the point that he had to MAKE it about him. So, okay, you wanna play? Like I said, time for me to get mine.
But srsly, it has dawned on me for the umpteenth time that this is the man for me. We fuck each other's heads, we fight like maniacs, and we play games with each other, sometimes. But we get under each other's skin simply BECAUSE we love one another so fucking much. Does that make sense?
When we're happy as a couple, it's the most beautiful thing in the world. We're like children, we're like newlyweds, we're like soul mates. I love this person more than anyone in this entire world, and I'm not quite sure I could ever feel this way again about ANYONE.
We just need to regroup. The time we spent apart under such stressful circumstances drove us both to do some crazy things, and we need to get past all of that in order to survive each other. I KNOW this relationship has a future, I KNOW we were meant for each other. It's all gonna work itself out, I just have to have some paitence.
Other than that not too much to report. My money woes are by far not over with, I'm still fighting my way back. I'm looking into getting a second part time job to make a little extra $$$ cause I'm about to bury myself. I can't even afford to get myself a modem, I've been on a shared computer for weeks now and it's driving me MAD. I have the coolest little chill out computer room in my new place, but I'm rarely in there cause I 've got no internet, yet.
Still settling into the new house, too. We haven't lived together as a family for a very long time, we're all getting used to each other's qwerks and rules. I'm still unpacking, but I'm unpacked enough that I'm comfortable. Those last few boxes are gonna be the hardest to get done, simply because nothing in them is an emergency to unpack.
I kind of put everything on hold in my life while I counted the days til he left. Time to get back to life as I know, time to knuckle down, straighten out the moola situation, finish making my new home my own. I'm gonna do it, just had to get all of the bullshit outta the way, first.
I still miss everybody bunches of tons. I'm trying my best to keep up with everyone on SG, but I share a computer with 4 other people. This makes it very difficult to get a substancial amount of time online. Boo.
Have a terrific weekend, everyone!!
Smooch
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I'm so blue without you.