connielingus

The only bummer at the moment is - (what else?) - my relationship. I'm finally admitting alot to myself about our future. Truth is, I'm pretty sure I no longer want a future with him. We've outgrown each other, we don't fit, we always agree to disagree. I need my freedom, I'm still discovering myself, I'm not ready to settle down and start a family.
I don't want this to end on bad terms, though. He really is my best friend, and I can't picture being totally without him. I feel like breaking up with him will destroy his life, I still want nothing more then his happiness. The way I'm looking at things now, he's planning on going home to Greece in July to attend his friends' wedding. He's been toying with the idea of staying there and "preparing" for me to join him a year or so after that. I think I'm just going to be honest with him, take these last few months to sort through all the bullshit and say our goodbyes. Then send him on his way in July and NOT follow him later.
All of this is just so sad. We just lost our grip along the way, and I can't make myself feel how I used to. I've been trying for nearly a year, now. I really think the nine month seperation made all the difference. Le sigh...