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My life has been non-stop stress for the past few weeks. We put out a brand new menu at work, which I absolutely ADORE, but it has made my job go from easy as pie to total chaos. The drama with my friends has added to the constant strain of everyday life as well as my relationship. And now the possibility that my grandmother, my heart, might have breast cancer.
The update on my GM: she went with half of my family in toe to see the surgeon, yesterday, and had a biopsy. We're all waiting on pins and needles for the results, which will take 3-4 days. I'm scared, but if we have to fight this battle, we'll do it with strength.

I can't dwell on the negative, anymore. I REALLY need to start shooting for my goals. Less talk, more action. Greek boy and I have been together for almost seven years, and we know what we want in life, but we're struggling to get there. We've been stuck in a rut for a few years, now, and we're now at the "enough is enough" point.
So, I'm taking some baby steps, here. I'm determined to make myself healthy (mind and body). First step, no more weed. I've said this before, but if at first you don't succeed.....
Diet, exercise, and ditching the ciggies are soon to follow. And I WILL learn to speak Greek. It's a disgrace that I've been with my Dimo for so long and can only say "fuck you" and "blow job" in his native tongue. I just ordered this computer program that is supposedly one of the best and easiest ways to learn a new language. When I'm finished, I should not only be able to speak Greek, but read and write it, as well. This shit better work, it was mucho expensive.
We're planning on re-locating to Greece within the next year. We've both come to the conclusion that staying in the states is a dead end for both of us. It's a big step and a shot in the dark, but I need a change in my life.
So, I might be sending Dimo home for six months or so to prepare. His odds at getting a good job in his field are better, there (and so's his credit), so he'll go over and get us a little "security" while I stay here and try to even out my debt.
In the meantime, I'm thinking of giving up my apartment, selling what isn't nailed down, and moving in with my grandparents. This will not only help me save some dough on rent, but it will give me the opportunity to give back to them what they've given me: someone to care for them, someone to help them in their time of need. My grandfather can barely walk and has been in not so great health for awhile, now. And if my grandmother needs treatment, they're gonna need help, big time.

I've been a little long winded in my blogs, lately, but I've got a lot on my mind. Apologies.

Something that's been nagging me is the lack of participation on this site. I realized, the other day, that I have many new friends who NEVER speak, never comment. It's getting to the point that I feel the need to do some clean up of my friends list. Yeah, I'm here for the boobies, but I'm also here to meet new people with new opinions and interests. So SPEAK UP, people, break the ice!!!! Tell me something about yourself, crack a joke, ask me a question, ANYTHING!!! If you suddenly find my name dissappears from your friends list, nothing personal, but I've no need for friends that are total strangers. I'm not a collector, I'm a cultivator.

I've babbled enough for now. Great big hugs and thanks to the people who've sent me their strength and prayers. You know who you are.

Smooch