Don't know what to write, lately. My head's all outta whack, that's the only way I can explain what my deal is.
Nothing's wrong, really. A good friend of mine sat down with me today to try and help me sort out my thoughts. I've been having these really extreme moments, lately, when I truly think I've finally lost my last marble. Call it anxiety.
So my buddy chalked these moments up to my mind finally releasing, finally letting go of all of the stress that should've been driving me mad throughout the last year of my life. Stress didn't register in my mind for a VERY long time, I had to supress it. Most people thought I would have a nervous breakdown, what with all the drama in my life last year. But I just knuckled down and did what I had to do.
But now that my honey is back from Greece, my mind has decided that I no longer need to be strong. It's as if I'm dealing with grief for something that's all ready done and over with.
I'm super nervous all of the time, I'm SUPER anxious, I lose my temper WAY too easily. When I'm around groups of people (especially strangers), I suddenly panic and think everybody's against me, snickering at me. (THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT YOU!!!!!
)
I'm freaking out lately and I just feel out of control. I need to get a handle on this, my life is on the up and up, and I can't sabbotage everything good that will come to me if I just put my mind to it.
Hope everyone is doing well. Don't mind me, I'm freakin mental.
Smooch
Nothing's wrong, really. A good friend of mine sat down with me today to try and help me sort out my thoughts. I've been having these really extreme moments, lately, when I truly think I've finally lost my last marble. Call it anxiety.
So my buddy chalked these moments up to my mind finally releasing, finally letting go of all of the stress that should've been driving me mad throughout the last year of my life. Stress didn't register in my mind for a VERY long time, I had to supress it. Most people thought I would have a nervous breakdown, what with all the drama in my life last year. But I just knuckled down and did what I had to do.
But now that my honey is back from Greece, my mind has decided that I no longer need to be strong. It's as if I'm dealing with grief for something that's all ready done and over with.
I'm super nervous all of the time, I'm SUPER anxious, I lose my temper WAY too easily. When I'm around groups of people (especially strangers), I suddenly panic and think everybody's against me, snickering at me. (THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT YOU!!!!!
)
I'm freaking out lately and I just feel out of control. I need to get a handle on this, my life is on the up and up, and I can't sabbotage everything good that will come to me if I just put my mind to it.
Hope everyone is doing well. Don't mind me, I'm freakin mental.
Smooch
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painunbound:
It's tough you know, now that things are getting better and easier that's when you have time to address these issues, so I guess you just have to go with it. 
weapon0:
I know what you mean. I've been dealing with a really bad apathetic streak that I'm just now coming out of. I'm sure you'll get better. 
I haven't had the chance to wrestle geekout with you lately. What do you think about the return of ECW. I missed the PPV last night. I might watch the encore later this week. I haven't decided yet. Stay well hon. *hugs*
I haven't had the chance to wrestle geekout with you lately. What do you think about the return of ECW. I missed the PPV last night. I might watch the encore later this week. I haven't decided yet. Stay well hon. *hugs*