comradesnarky

Goddamn, I go away for a month and the site gets a complete makeover. I don't know if I like it yet, but change is rarely a bad thing.

So I've spent the first month of my summer pretty much as I expected to: I played video games, drank, and relaxed. My grades were damn good this semester, two As, two Bs, and a C that should have been higher, but I fucked up. Oh the wonders of a semester without graphic design classes, hah.

I also got my old job at Borders back. For various reasons I requested to be moved out of the cafe and onto the floor, but after a couple weeks trying to sell books to people who are barely literate it became clear to me that barista-ing is a much more plesant way to spend the summer, even if it means working for a company owned by Starbucks. After about 50 hours of re-training by Seattle's Best I have to say I feel pretty good about my job and what I sell. I even like all of my coworkers, which is a first. Things look good, I'm actually almost looking forward to working tomorrow.

The only snags in my summer so far are that I still don't have a car, and that my grandfather's health has taken a turn for the worst. I don't really know what to do about either of these things so I've just not been thinking about them. Stupid, I know, but I'm at a loss with both situations. I can't afford a new car, I can't afford to get my old piece of shit fixed, and I can't ask my parents for a financial boost because they can't afford to give one to me. I'm fucking sick of mooching rides off of people, I need to figure out something soon.
My grandfather's health has been falling apart for a few years now, starting with his Parkinson's diagnosis two years ago, and now culminating in his kidney and prostate problems, which came to a head on Wednesday. He's been in the hospital for 5 days and I haven't called him or gone to see him. I don't know, I can't do either thing. It's not that I don't care, it's just that I don't know what to say or do. I get paralyzed, and then everyone looks at me like I'm a retard. Fuck. Right now I'm in the process of encoding a bunch of his favourite old vinyl records into mp3 so he can listen to them for the first time in god knows how long, probably longer than I've been alive. I know it'll make him happy, it's about the only thing I can think of to do.

Ah well, with all that being said I still haven't looked at any of the sets that were posted while I was gone, so off I go to do that.