analyzed. thought it over too much. criticize. myself way too much. i'll utilize, the energy i have left to say goodbye, to you, and i will survive.
cos i've lost what i once found in you.
take your smoke, coughing, choking, there is no hope. take your records away, i hate folk. pack your bags, and don't forget your coat. it's cold outside, but you'll...
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cos i've lost what i once found in you.
take your smoke, coughing, choking, there is no hope. take your records away, i hate folk. pack your bags, and don't forget your coat. it's cold outside, but you'll...
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people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
i wonder about some of the people in my life. and how long will it last? how long do i really want it to? why do i allow them in it at all? am i really so insecure that losing people that are totally bad for me and my esteem really bothers...
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i wonder about some of the people in my life. and how long will it last? how long do i really want it to? why do i allow them in it at all? am i really so insecure that losing people that are totally bad for me and my esteem really bothers...
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relethed:
could you just come over and write my journal for me?
i'm tired of fighting for a lost cause. he's given up on life completely (except for the off chance that he can get into training for smoke jumping). i don't know what to do for someone who doesn't want your help. he says i make him happy. that when he's with me he doesn't worry and he feels relaxed and somewhat enjoys life. wouldn't it...
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relethed:
right 
emperor_tane:
It sounds like he is content with his life as it is. He might see the damaging effects of his actions, but he is not strong enough or he just doesn't care to give that aspect of his life up.
You are a strong woman, I don't really know your situation with this man, but I think you can find someone else, that treats themselves and you alot better. You DESERVE better!
Tane
You are a strong woman, I don't really know your situation with this man, but I think you can find someone else, that treats themselves and you alot better. You DESERVE better!
Tane
i have to keep telling myself, 'you're a beautiful person. you deserve better than this. you're going to be happier in the future.'
i just hope i'm not lying to myself.
i just hope i'm not lying to myself.
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robodeathcat:
If its your dream, then you already know its inside of you, right?
prudence:
hey- there's a group for people with kids now...it's called 'righteous spawn' [name change coming soon, hopefully
]. you should join!
]. you should join!today the conversation with dave was easier. slightly less awkward. more laughter. it feels less painful saying goodbye knowing i can still be his friend and laugh with him and make him smile. my god do i ever love that smile. maybe he does need me to battle his alcoholism, whenever he decides to start doing that, but right now all i want to be...
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emperor_tane:
Hey girl! Where you been, what did you bring me?? Much love....
Tane
Tane
my computer died. i got it fixed. i am back online. this joint is a mess.
my life is kind of a mess. i'll straighten things out i swear. i just have to get this god damned alcoholic fuckwad out of my life and stop worrying about him and start worrying about me. i deserve better than this.
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my life is kind of a mess. i'll straighten things out i swear. i just have to get this god damned alcoholic fuckwad out of my life and stop worrying about him and start worrying about me. i deserve better than this.
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relethed:
yeah! she's back! 
neon:
oh man i love that link! i have a collection of kitty links and that's deffenitely one of them. 
what a beautiful face i have found in this place that is circling around the sun. what a beautiful dream that could flash on the screen in the blink of an eye and be gone from me. soft and sweet. let me hold it close and keep it here with me. and one day we will die and our ashes will fly from the aeroplane...
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darkskyy1:
very beautiful indeed!
thanks for the kind words on my journal!
thanks for the kind words on my journal!
i'm so very sad unhappy.
emily:
I'm sorry..That really sux...I know how you feel....But why are you sad?
bonokirk:
Turn the frown upside down.
i got my nose pierced today. everytime i'm feeling extremly low i get something pierced then take it out a couple months later. it's an expensive habit, but a habit none the less. the man who pierced me, aric, told me i have the cutest nose he's pierced. i think aric wanted some poon.
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holdensolo:
Although Tane is right about the cute factor, I believe his motives revolve around the "desire of some poon". I see now why you're bitter.
toreena:
I do that, too.
But with my hair, if I don't have the money for peircings.
I just....cut off all my hair. Or dye it some inane colour.
But with my hair, if I don't have the money for peircings.
I just....cut off all my hair. Or dye it some inane colour.
Tane
i hope you're doing all right. it sounds like you've reached a turning point--exciting, brave, also a bit scary, probably?
i hope also that you're not freaked out by me.